cataracts and betrayal (roughing the draft)

break a world bleed it dry there is no compromise nothing matters none of this do it cause we said it save your tears take it back everything is on its path its the time of your life save your tears its alright and i will hold your hand as i hold you down and i will not save you and i will hold your hand as i hold you down and i will not save you i saw the best of my generation born into sorrow born into sadness born into darkness and i was the first to look at the sun i was the first to say what have we done look at the world weve built look at the world weve built fucking god my soul is turning blue what have we done to you? this is no victory dont you see? mm-mm, mm dont you see? i cannot make you understand what i have become all i am is all i know and all i am is done so take my body and my soul oh and take my gun ill meet you in the underworld and we will have our fun i cannot make you understand what i have become all i am is all i know and all i am is done so take my body and my soul oh and take my gun ill meet you in the underworld and we will have our fun falling in line with the shadows substance from the ground of hell i love it but i cant follow they took me when the darkness fell a dozen ways to love a devil when its over, can i tell? wrote the epilogue but couldnt save myself demons cant fall in love reapers looking down on us just another loaded gun but ive never been a good shot shouldve kept my mouth shut failed another loved one used to see the future now im not so sure ive got one drifting through the memories of when i used to have a soul trading love for currency its got a funny way of getting old demons in my bed again the world is better off alone what can i say? its unfathomable mm where are you now? i want to spend my last days with you i wanna spend my last days with you i wanna spend my last days with you i wanna spend my last days with you take me with you oh oh i wanna spend my last days with you i wanna spend my last days with you take me with you oh oh oh take me with you oh oh oh take me with you oh oh oh take me with you oh oh oh everything is falling apart and i wanna see you one last time and i wonder where you are i wanna hold you as we say goodbye im worried in these dirty white streets doin more to get clean than i do to get clean guess what that mean? blood, sweat, and tears to my family drug, sex, and beers with my enemies toxic my tendencies but how they gon tell me when they dont know me? im different baby, when i speak, they wont listen grew up in a town where no one had no ambition no goals, just pills, coke, or prescriptions its no hope, just coke and addictions slowly driftin aint noticed when my soul went missin devoted to my load of these sins, and im broke, spent every cent on weed and some smoke to get lit my spirits broken, i can feel it in my bones, when will this get better? guess never i was close to love but no heaven only drugged and hugs and some wet weather in my tub, nothin but mud on the white feathers first touch and i felt like forever like first crush its forever or never she a freak, we do it on the first meet nasty, but she always got me comin back like worse drugs we dont play, she give me a safe word chains on me, man, i used to hate words cause i couldnt say words now i couldnt go a day without sayin words sayin it first makin em play it in reverse makin em pay for the verse man, i hope they playin it first sick, yeah, we started as a fetish quickly got perverted now its startin to get desperate im heartless, its no longer in my chest and my partner when i cut her, its refreshing then it hits my tongue and its sour the taste of devotion, the smell of the roses the way that you focus when im speakin, you quote it when you leavin, i wrote it i been bleedin, but nobody noticed man, i wrote this for nobody to quote this baby, you a goddess but not the one that i worship baby, you a goddess not the one that i worship mm-mm, mm angels came come my way tear my face the scars remain face the pain with no shame with no shame angels came come my way tear my face the scars remain face the pain with no shame with no shame woah, woah mm-mm, mm mm-mm, mm