My Head’s a Warzone V4 (explicit)

“No Peace for the Wicked (My Head’s a Warzone).” --- (Intro) Yeah… y’all think this is a choice? Nah. Try sleepin’ with a bomb inside your chest. Tick… tick… mothafuckin’ tock bitch... --- (Verse 1) I got a penthouse view but the walls are closin’ in Every conversation’s just a different kind of sin Doctor says “breathe,” I say “breathe what, the fuckin’ rot?” Told my mom I’m fine—liest shit I ever shot Now she's not here to say “chill, son, i got chu” That’s cute. You ever had a mind that wants you shot too? I shake hands, I laugh, I nod, I play the part But under every smile is a razor to my heart No one hears the screamin’, it’s a frequency I own Silence is a loaded gun—I live inside the drone Turn the TV on, the world’s a funeral parade But I don’t live in their world, I live inside a blade So fuck your politics, your prayers, your hot takes Y’all rearrangin’ deck chairs while my soul quakes --- (Chorus) Where the fuck is peace?! I been searchin’ every vein Every room, every pill, every highway in the rain They say “crazy don’t know crazy”—well then I ain’t insane ‘Cause I feel every fracture, every axle, every chain World spinnin’ off its axis—that’s their problem, not mine I’m just tryna find a light before I run out of time How long can a man hold on when the dark’s his only friend? Should I go? Should I stay? When does the waiting end? --- (Verse 2) Therapist wrote “paranoid” on her little pad Bitch, you’d be paranoid too if the quiet drove you mad Tried a guru in the mountains, tried a Xanax in a club Tried a fist through the drywall, tried a half-assed kind of love Tried the whiskey, tried the Jesus, tried the needles (not the vein) Tried ignorin’ all the voices—now they scream inside the rain Peace ain’t a destination, nah, it’s a mothafuckin’ ghost I grab it, it dissolves—then I hate the ones who toast “At least you got your health,” “At least you got a bed” At least shut the fuck up ‘fore I tear out what they said I don’t want your sympathy, I want the static to dissolve But the darkness ain’t a threat now—it’s the only thing that’s all --- (Bridge) What can a man do when his own pulse is a threat? When the sunset looks like arson and the dawn ain’t happened yet I know the light exists—I seen it once, was it six..sssssssss..no seven HA, Felt it hover for a second, then it's 1 to fuckin’ Eleven Now it’s just a question mark tattooed behind my eyes How long ‘til the darkness takes me? And why’s that thought feel wise? Not suicidal—worse than that. I’m tired. Tired of chasin’ somethin’ real through a world that’s all on fire They say “hold on, it gets better” —better when? Better where? I been holdin’ since the womb, man, my knuckles are bare --- (Chorus) Where the fuck is peace?! I been searchin’ every vein Every room, every pill, every highway in the rain They say “crazy don’t know crazy”—well then I ain’t insane ‘Cause I feel every fracture, every axle, every chain World spinnin’ off its axis—that’s their problem, not mine I’m just tryna find a light before I run out of time How long can a man hold on when the dark’s his only friend? Should I go? Should I stay? When does the waiting end? --- (Outro – fading) …When does the waiting end… Tick… tick… Maybe the light was the lie. Maybe the dark is the blanket. But I’m still here. Don’t know if that’s brave… or stupid. Fuck....Here it comes.. (Beat cuts abruptly. Silence.)