Forged in Grief

[Verse 1 — Scorched Ashes] Built myself up From scorched resin-covered ashes As the chronic smoke blows Scraped from the sludge Out of the chamber The grief turned to vapor As my consciousness slowly tapers No matter how many times I work through the pain The next day it's back again Like a deep-seated stain Ingrained in me Head too foggy To see a way out Filled with self-doubt As my soul cries out My music inflating the strain But it's the only place I can put it Every word makes me stare At the shit I'm trying to escape Digging through the ashes For something worth taking away [Chorus 1 — The Cycle] Forged from resin-covered ashes Day by day my soul gets blacker Light behind my eyes Slowly fades and shatters Picking up the pieces Finding my way Back to peace again Just to wake up tomorrow And do it all again [Verse 2 — Grief in the Bong] Grief bubbles in the bong Gluing the broken pieces together With resin black As life feels I don't know how most people deal But this shit is straight horror Burning through my core My soul's so sore So grind it down And pour it in the bowl Let the spirit soar Watch everything I couldn't hold Curl upward with the smoke For a moment I can breathe again For a moment The broken pieces Don't feel so broken [Chorus 1 — The Cycle] Forged from resin-covered ashes Day by day my soul gets blacker Light behind my eyes Slowly fades and shatters Picking up the pieces Finding my way Back to peace again Just to wake up tomorrow And do it all again [Verse 3 — Forged in Grief] Waking up forged in grief Running from my demons All night in my sleep This shit runs deep But hope I will always keep Yin and yang Constantly in flow Neutrality is all my face shows So nobody will know How deep my pain goes Painting my roses white Wish the thorns would just go Wish I could trust Wish life would give A little more than it takes But it's pointless Stuck in this loop Wake up Work on myself Go to bed Repeat All progress stripped away As I sleep Like every night Something reaches inside And scatters everything I spent the day putting back together A snap an hour Is what it takes to breathe Just for me to be able To truly see That there's nothing wrong with me And bring out the creativity Hidden in me [Chorus 2 — The Forge] Forged from resin-covered ashes Day by day I'm getting stronger Light behind my eyes Might fade But it ain't shattered Picking up the pieces Finding my way Back to peace again If I wake up tomorrow broken I'll fucking forge myself again [Verse 4 — Beneath the Masks] Living a life Forged in grief A pile of clay masks Peel off and fall beneath Underneath Hides the real me Every face I built to survive Cracks and falls into the street Don't know if I'm finding myself Or just removing What isn't me Soul untethers Levitating through the dark streets Body somewhere down below While awareness drifts free Streetlights blur Beneath my feet Shadows stretching endlessly If every mask Can fall away What the fuck is left That's me? [Outro — Still Forging] Hope burning like fire Keeping the spark Of my desire to be free Till then I'll just continue to be me Forging the path Of who I'm meant to be Smoking weed And living