[Verse one] I could alleviate your pain be a medicine you've never felt Deplete myself and drain myself of all I could have been It's in these moments we discover who we are To enable another is never to let us get very far [Bass drum and synth distortion] I could carry your weight for you but then you'd never know the heaviness it brings You were a child when they were pulling the strings As you've aged, you've taken for granted all the pain you haven't looked at I can't be your medicine Not this time I'm taking care of mine [chorus] Paradigm shift, as I'm not the one reaching Loosen the panicked grip of what this is teaching A martyr program dies this time instead of me I was never responsible for others healing It's a privilege to have me in your life You just don't know it yet I didn't know it either But I do now Say it again It's a privilege to have my assistance I'm allowed to want to help It's a privilege to know me at all But I get to take care of myself I'm not self conceited or obsessed But when I forget me I teach you, I'm obsessed with you That isn't helping that's just hurting You need to care about you, too That's not my job to do [Verse two] I could shift energies while never speaking as if I know them To make you comfortable with control that you know more I could stay an assistant or an employee- When I could step in and rise an Empire from the floor I'm the unsuspecting oleander - Waving in the wind But the only one I poison is myself when I give in To the idea that you're better To the thought that you're ahead I rise you pillar and pedestal And leave myself for dead Not again I say - I accept now help The kind that isn't fighting me But wants me to love myself [chorus] Paradigm shift, as I'm not the one reaching Loosen the panicked grip of what this might be teaching A martyr program dies this time instead of me I was never responsible for others healing It's a privilege to have me in your life You just don't know it yet I didn't know it either But I do now Saying again It's a privilege to have my assistance It's a privilege to know me at all I'm not conceited or obsessed with myself But when I forget me I teach you, I'm obsessed with you That isn't helping that's just hurting You need to care about you too I don't think you know it's not what I'm commanded to do In your pain you spit at me In your looped void I appear a threat Climb through your darkness, please You haven't met me yet [chorus] Paradigm shift, as I'm not reaching anymore Loosened panicked grip of what this might rescue you from my martyr program dies this time instead of me I was never responsible for others healing It's a privilege to have me in their life They just don't know it yet I'm allowed to meet my needs I didn't know it either But I do now Say it again It's a privilege to have my assistance I'm allowed to give to myself It's a privilege to know me at all I'm not conceited or obsessed But when I forget me I teach you, I'm obsessed with you That isn't helping that's just hurting You need to care about you too It's not what I need to do more [Ending] You need to look at your past I can't carry that I'll support along the way- But remember it's a privilege
