nothing personal, i just don't feel anything nothing's wrong, i just don't know what anything means i keep laughing at the worst parts of my life if i make it into a joke, maybe it won't feel like mine i got good at turning pain into a punchline smiling at the moments that were never mine everybody laughs, so nobody asks how long can i keep hiding behind the mask nothing personal, i just don't feel anything nothing's wrong, i just don't know what anything means i keep laughing at the worst parts of my life if i make it into a joke, maybe it won't feel like mine i say i'm fine before you finish asking change the subject when the questions start getting lasting i know exactly how to make it look okay i just don't know how to make the feeling go away maybe i'm numb, maybe i'm tired maybe i'm scared of what i find if i look inside so i make another joke and wait for the laugh then bury what i mean underneath the aftermath nothing personal, i just don't feel anything nothing's wrong, i just don't know what anything means i keep laughing at the worst parts of my life if i make it into a joke, maybe it won't feel like mine i don't remember when i stopped being honest when every real emotion started feeling obnoxious when saying that i'm hurting felt worse than the hurt so i learned how to laugh before i found the words nothing personal, don't take it the wrong way i've been disappearing a little more every day if i seem distant, if i seem out of place i'm just trying to recognize my own face nothing personal, i just don't feel anything nothing's wrong, i just don't know what anything means i keep laughing at the worst parts of my life if i make it into a joke, maybe it won't feel like mine nothing personal nothing personal i swear i'm fine i swear i'm fine nothing personal nothing personal it's just easier to laugh than admit that i'm not alright nothing personal, i just don't feel anything nothing's wrong, i just don't know what anything means i keep laughing at the worst parts of my life if i make it into a joke, maybe it won't feel like mine
