Inspired by WHAT THEY TRIED TO TAKE

fast drumming, emotional synthwave, dark style, hyper techno, electronic elements

V5.5

[VERSE 1]
I avoid the mirrors
Wear my clothes a little loose
Sit at angles till it hurts me
Just to look okay to you
Suck my stomach in beside you
Try to act like I don’t care
You just throw on any T-shirt
I prepare to be compared
[PRE-CHORUS]
I know you put the work in
I know that isn’t wrong
I don’t even want your body
I just want to like my own
I’m not really running
Still somehow feeling lost
Never wanted in this race
Still mad at what it cost
[CHORUS]
So I’m stuck here in limbo
Don’t really wanna be you
But I envy you so much
Say I don’t care
Then change the way I sit
When you show up
Can I be the one remembered
When it gets cold in December?
Will you take me as I am
Even when I have no plan?
Or are you waiting for
Some other version of me?
[VERSE 2]
Got picked apart for being different
Before I knew what different meant
Now nobody has to say it
I can do that shit myself
Every picture gets inspected
Every compliment denied
If I catch a decent version
I decide the camera lied
[PRE-CHORUS]
You don’t have to think about it
I can’t stop if I want to
I have to focus twice as hard
To look half as good as you
I don’t hate you for looking good
I hate what I turn into
I don’t really want your body
I want what I think it gives you
[CHORUS]
So I’m stuck here in limbo
Don’t really wanna be you
But I envy you so much
Say I don’t care
Then change the way I sit
When you show up
Can I be the one remembered
When it gets cold in December?
Will you take me as I am
Even when I have no plan?
Or are you waiting for
Some other version of me?
[BRIDGE]
Keep my shirt on, kill the lights
Turn my body to the side
If your hand moves to my stomach
I go rigid every time
Say I look good, say it twice
I still wonder if you mean it
You see a body
I see a list
Every little thing
I should’ve fixed
I want you close
I want to leave
I want you looking
Just not at me
[FINAL CHORUS]
Still stuck here in limbo
Don’t really wanna be you
But I envy you so much
Say I don’t care
Then change the way I breathe
When you touch me
Can I be the one remembered
When it gets cold in December?
Will you take me as I am
If this is all I ever am?
I keep asking you to love me
Then I doubt you when you do
Please just let me be
Some other version of me.

2235/7500

[VERSE 1] I avoid the mirrors Wear my clothes a little loose Sit at angles till it hurts me Just to look okay to you Suck my stomach in beside you Try to act like I don’t care You just throw on any T-shirt I prepare to be compared [PRE-CHORUS] I know you put the work in I know that isn’t wrong I don’t even want your body I just want to like my own I’m not really running Still somehow feeling lost Never wanted in this race Still mad at what it cost [CHORUS] So I’m stuck here in limbo Don’t really wanna be you But I envy you so much Say I don’t care Then change the way I sit When you show up Can I be the one remembered When it gets cold in December? Will you take me as I am Even when I have no plan? Or are you waiting for Some other version of me? [VERSE 2] Got picked apart for being different Before I knew what different meant Now nobody has to say it I can do that shit myself Every picture gets inspected Every compliment denied If I catch a decent version I decide the camera lied [PRE-CHORUS] You don’t have to think about it I can’t stop if I want to I have to focus twice as hard To look half as good as you I don’t hate you for looking good I hate what I turn into I don’t really want your body I want what I think it gives you [CHORUS] So I’m stuck here in limbo Don’t really wanna be you But I envy you so much Say I don’t care Then change the way I sit When you show up Can I be the one remembered When it gets cold in December? Will you take me as I am Even when I have no plan? Or are you waiting for Some other version of me? [BRIDGE] Keep my shirt on, kill the lights Turn my body to the side If your hand moves to my stomach I go rigid every time Say I look good, say it twice I still wonder if you mean it You see a body I see a list Every little thing I should’ve fixed I want you close I want to leave I want you looking Just not at me [FINAL CHORUS] Still stuck here in limbo Don’t really wanna be you But I envy you so much Say I don’t care Then change the way I breathe When you touch me Can I be the one remembered When it gets cold in December? Will you take me as I am If this is all I ever am? I keep asking you to love me Then I doubt you when you do Please just let me be Some other version of me.

0/500