The Swirl (Remastered)

[Intro] slow, haunting piano soft ambient shimmer [Verse 1] I’m lost in a swirl of my own making Not water, not reflection, not air It’s a pensive turned inside out Every thought I’ve buried still waiting there Metallic embers twist and flicker Some burn red, some freeze to steel I’m restless in the quiet’s shadow Unsure what I’m allowed to feel [Pre-Chorus] It hums like guilt in the back of my skull A storm that whispers my name Every time I reach for peace It just changes shape again [Chorus] What I do is never enough But who decides what “enough” should be I’m the shimmer and the shatter The ache that sets me free Oh this world keeps burning pretty While I bleed in poetry [Verse 2] I’m electrified staring into the swirl Defensive, unsure where to start Every spark I touch could love me Or set fire to my heart Wire and whiskey hold me together Half saint, half gasoline If I ever find still water I’ll drown just to feel it clean [Bridge] Don’t tell me to calm down love I’ve swallowed fire for less If salvation ever finds me She’ll be wearing a torn down dress [Final Chorus] What I do is never enough And maybe that’s divine If I’m built from all this chaos Then the chaos must be mine Oh the world can keep its pretty I’ll keep my blood and spine [Outro] And when the last ember fades I melt into the swirl To all this matter I’ve become Every shard, every sigh, every girl Maybe I’ve always known the answer Just forgot how to speak her name Maybe I was never lost Just learning how to stay