(Verse 1) The curtains stayed shut for weeks I couldn’t tell the night from day The same clothes on my body The same side of the bed decayed You’d ask me if I wanted sunlight I’d say “maybe later on” But the days blurred into nothing And suddenly a month was gone The flowers died beside the window Takeout piled up by the sink You were loving someone hollow Too exhausted just to think (Pre-Chorus) I know it hurt to hold me When I disappeared inside myself You were loving someone drowning Trying to ask for help (Chorus) I’m sorry I loved you from underwater I’m sorry I went missing in my mind You held me while I drifted into shadows And I left you there too many times You kissed the ache inside me While I turned into the night I know you couldn’t save me But God… you tried (Verse 2) There were weeks I never left the house The world outside felt sharp and strange My body heavy as a gravestone My thoughts feral in their cage I slept through afternoons and birthdays Stopped replying to my friends You were standing in the doorway Watching me slowly cave in And I hated how you looked at me Like you missed who I had been Like depression wore my face now And wouldn’t let me out again (Bridge) I was never trying to punish you I was fighting ghosts you couldn’t see But I know love grows heavy When one heart forgets to breathe (Final Chorus) I’m sorry I loved you from underwater Like my soul was tied beneath the tide You held me while I faded into nowhere And I know that part of you died You gave warmth to a winter That lived deep inside my chest And even at my darkest You still loved me best (Outro) You loved me through closed curtains Even when I disappeared.
