[Verse 1] I count the doors I meant to close The calls I let ring through I keep a list behind my teeth Of all I owe to you Your coat is hanging by the stairs I say, “I’m fine,” again Then wash the same cup twice at night And start the day at ten [Pre-Chorus] I’m trying not to let you down I’m trying not to disappear I carry every borrowed worry Like it belongs right here [Chorus] I’m worn down from holding steady From saying yes before I know I’m doing everything I can But I’m running on so low If I falter, if I need a hand Please don’t call that giving in I’m still here, I’m still trying I just don’t know where to begin [Verse 2] The lunch I packed is in the fridge The note I meant to send I rehearse your face when I get home And how I’ll make amends I know you never asked for this This weight I make my own But every small mistake becomes A debt I pay alone [Pre-Chorus] I’m trying not to let you down I’m trying not to disappear I carry every borrowed worry Like it belongs right here [Chorus] I’m worn down from holding steady From saying yes before I know I’m doing everything I can But I’m running on so low If I falter, if I need a hand Please don’t call that giving in I’m still here, I’m still trying I just don’t know where to begin [Bridge] Could you sit with me a minute While the dishes wait till dawn? I don’t need a fix or promise Just don’t ask me to be strong [Final Chorus] I’m worn down from holding steady But I don’t have to do it all I can tell you I am tired I can let the brave act fall If I falter, if I need a hand Let that be where we begin I’m still here, I’m still trying And I’m learning to let you in [Outro] I’m still here I’m still trying Let me rest before I rise
