Sun comes up too soon again Didn’t sleep, just stayed in it Staring at the ceiling fan Like it might explain everything City hums behind thin walls Life moves on, I miss it all Coffee cold on the counter edge Time slips off the window ledge And I don’t know what I’m waiting for Just something that feels less unsure Still awake, but it’s okay Doesn’t feel as heavy As it did yesterday Still awake, I’m not afraid Of the quiet in my head It doesn’t pull me away Thoughts don’t crash like they used to do They just drift, then pass right through I used to fight the night so hard Now I let it leave its marks Still awake, but it’s okay Doesn’t feel as heavy As it did yesterday Still awake, I’m not afraid Of the space between my breaths Or the words I couldn’t say Maybe healing isn’t loud Maybe it’s just slowing down Learning how to stay right here Without turning into fear I think I’m happy… Or getting closer Either way, I’m still here And I’m a little bit closer
