Ready to Leave

If you could see me from the outside in Like watching through a warped lens You’d probably turn away before I speak Before I could even explain I’ve been drifting through a crowded room With the volume way too high Every face is moving out of sync Like time just slipped its line I tried to feel what everyone else does But it fades before it starts Like I almost reach the feeling Then it slips right through my arms Maybe I’m ready to leave this orbit Even if it pulls me apart If there’s something waiting past the noise I’ll follow the sound of a start Tell me I can let somebody matter Tell me it’s not too late I’ve been circling this feeling forever Now I’m trying to change my state People talk and I hear my name But it barely pulls me in I smile like I’m supposed to While my mind is somewhere else again I catch myself in the bathroom mirror Trying to look alive Practice saying something honest Then I leave it all behind I reach out, then I pull away again Like I’m testing if it’s real Every moment feels rehearsed I forgot how things should feel I forgot how things should feel Maybe I’m ready to leave this orbit Even if it pulls me apart If there’s something waiting past the noise I’ll follow the sound of a start Tell me I can let somebody matter Tell me it’s not too late I’ve been circling this feeling forever Now I’m trying to change my state Time keeps folding in on itself Days dissolve into one I keep chasing some kind of clarity But it slips me as I run Is it me, or the world that’s distant? Is it choice, or design? All I know is something’s shifting Just beyond my mind If you could see me now I’m not running anymore Just standing in the motion Letting it carry me ashore Maybe I’m ready to leave this orbit Even if it pulls me apart If there’s something waiting past the noise I’ll follow the sound of a start Tell me I can let somebody matter Tell me it’s not too late I’ve been circling this feeling forever Now I’m trying to change my state