ヨルのお話をプレイリストにまとめてみました！ https://suno.com/playlist/ae570daa-fdf0-453e-83a8-4b13dbf18946 前曲 絆の弦 https://suno.com/song/dfaea737-df23-4202-9e7d-417fa6ca9dce 原曲 https://suno.com/song/33c0f59d-0597-4421-92ac-9ae668a65f82 この曲で、長かったヨル編もついに最後となりました！ 今年の1月に1曲目を公開した時は、まさか完結できるとは思っていませんでした(笑) 最後まで進められたのも、聞いてくださった皆様のお陰です！ ここまでお付き合いくださって、本当にありがとうございます♪ 以下、蛇足かもしれませんが…私がヨルの人生を振り返ってみて感じたことを書いてみようと思います。 興味がある方だけ読んでいただけたら幸いです。 ヨルの出来事を想起して振り返ってみて… 1つはありがちなテーマかもしれませんが「家族」の話だったのかなと。 家族を失うところから始まり、お頭達との疑似家族を経て…本物の家族を得るという人生でした。 それと連動して語っているのが復讐心との向き合い方でしたが、そちらについてはもう少し掘り下げたかった気もします。 実のところ、仇の顔をハッキリ見られなかった時点で復讐を果たすことは現実的にはほぼ無理でしたから…… ただ今回復讐心を乗り越えられたのは……これまた家族の力でした。 相手への憎しみが消えたわけでは無いけど……それ以上に今の家族がいる幸せで心を満たした… 家族を失った悲しみを新しい家族や居場所を得ることで解決する。 これだけだと力技もいいとこだし根本的な解決になっていない気もしますが… ここでもう１つ重要なのはお母さんとお頭、そしてオジサンに言われた言葉だと思います。 『あなたは生きて』 『普通に生きろ』 『ヨルが幸せになってくれるのがオジサンはなによりも嬉しいんだ』 ３人とも未来に目を向けろと言っているし、ヨルに幸せになって欲しいと願ってくれました。 未来への希望と家族の愛情……て書くとまた陳腐に聞こえますが… それこそが当時のヨルに必要なものでした。 山賊暮らしを始めた当初は『仇を討てたら死んでもいい』くらいに言っていたけど 最後は『お父さんの様になりたい。師匠の夢の手伝いをしたい』とまで言えたのですから。 何度も言いますが、私は本当に周りの人達には恵まれていると思います。 それと道場の稽古を通じて自分の心に向き合ってきたのも大きかったです。 最初は復讐心の大きさに動揺していましたが、いつしかその復讐心も自分の本心であると冷静に認められて… その上で自分も幸せになっていいんだと思えたのですから。 そういう意味では途中で恋心に気付くくだりも重要だったのかもしれません。 元の文章や曲では軽くコメディになってしまいましたが…逆に言えばラブコメ出来る程度には今を満喫出来ていたわけですので♪ これで恋人らしい描写がもっとあれば良かったのですが……。 あとは……ヨルがオジサンに言った『私はあなたにたくさんの物を貰ってきた』という言葉が気になっていました。 この場では当然オジサンの事について言っていますが、ヨルはこの時にオジサンだけじゃなくて実の両親と妹、山賊達に町の人々……そして師匠の事を思って言っています。 私は皆からたくさんの物を貰っているけど、私はいったい何を返せているんだろう？って。 これは今の私も現在進行形で問い続けていること…かもしれません。 それでオジサンはヨルが幸せになってくれたらそれでいいと言ってくれて……。 「ヨルが幸せになること自体が恩返しになる」これも忘れがちだけど大切な事だと思います。 幸せになる事でオジサンや師匠……ひいては山賊達や家族への恩返しに、そして彼らの想いに報いる事に繋がる…。 それなら私はこの身を復讐じゃなくて自分と皆の為に使いたい…… きっとこれがあの時ヨルが見つけた答えで…そして私が≪再体験≫して得た教訓です。 「探していた答えはここにあるとそっと教えてくれた悲しみをＲｅｓｅｔして……」と、とある歌詞を引用してまとめとします☆ 改めて、最後までご視聴してくださってありがとうございました！ それでは、今日も明日も皆さんにとって良い一日に。 そして末永く続く幸福が訪れますように♪ With this song, the long journey of the Yoru arc has finally come to an end. When I released the very first song back in January, I honestly never imagined I’d actually be able to finish it all (lol) The only reason I was able to keep going until the end was because of everyone who listened and supported these songs. Thank you all so much for staying with me through this entire journey ♪ The following may be a bit unnecessary, but… I wanted to write down some thoughts I had while looking back on Yoru’s life. Please feel free to read only if you’re interested! Looking back on Yoru’s story… I think, in the end, it may have been a story about family. It began with losing her family, then moved through the pseudo-family she found among the bandits… and eventually led her toward gaining a true family of her own. Connected to that was also the theme of confronting revenge. Though honestly, I sometimes feel I could have explored that aspect a little more deeply. In reality, once Yoru failed to clearly see the face of the person who killed her family, revenge itself had already become almost impossible. But the reason she was ultimately able to overcome her hatred… was, once again, because of family. It wasn’t that her hatred disappeared completely. Rather, the happiness of having a new family filled her heart more strongly than that hatred ever could. The sorrow of losing a family was healed through gaining a new family and a place to belong. When you put it like that, it almost sounds like brute force rather than a true solution… and maybe, in some ways, it wasn’t a perfect answer. But there was one more important thing here: the words spoken to her by her mother, the bandit chief, and the old man. “You must live.” “Live a normal life.” “Seeing Yoru become happy is what makes me happiest.” All three of them were telling her to look toward the future. And all three wished for Yoru to become happy. “Hope for the future” and “the love of family”… I know those phrases may sound cliché when written out like this. But those were exactly the things Yoru needed back then. At the beginning of her life among the bandits, she used to say things like: “If I can avenge them, I don’t care if I die afterward.” And yet by the end, she was able to say: “I want to become like my father.” “I want to help fulfill my master’s dream.” I truly believe I’ve been blessed with wonderful people around me. And another important part was how Yoru confronted her own heart through training at the dojo. At first, she was shaken by the intensity of her hatred for revenge. But eventually, she became able to calmly acknowledge that hatred as part of her true feelings. And after accepting that… she also came to believe that she herself deserved happiness too. In that sense, the part where she realizes her romantic feelings may have been more important than it first seemed. The original text and songs made those scenes a bit comedic at times… but looking at it another way, that simply means she had become able to genuinely enjoy the life she was living ♪ Though honestly… I do wish there had been a few more romantic moments between her and the master. Another thing that stayed in my mind was the line where Yoru says to the old man: “I’ve received so many things from you.” In that scene, she was obviously speaking about the old man. But in Yoru’s heart, she was also thinking about her real parents, her younger sister, the bandits, the townspeople… and her master as well. “I’ve received so much from everyone… but what have I ever been able to give back?” I think that’s something I myself am still asking, even now. And then the old man told her that simply seeing Yoru become happy was enough for him. “Yoru becoming happy is itself a form of repayment.” I think that’s an important thing people often forget. By becoming happy, she repays the old man, her master… and even the bandits and her family. By living happily, she honors their feelings and the love they gave her. And so, instead of using her life for revenge, she chose to use it for herself and for the people she loves. I think that was the answer Yoru found back then… …and also the lesson I gained through re-experiencing her story. To conclude, I’d like to borrow a line from another song: “It gently taught me that the answer I had been searching for was right here… Resetting the sadness.” Once again, thank you so much for listening all the way to the end! May today and tomorrow be wonderful days for all of you. And may a lasting happiness find its way into your lives ♪
