I used to stand where your shadow fell, Like it was safe there, like I knew myself. Then I saw the cracks in the light you wore, And I pulled back quietly from the open door. Not to punish you, not to make you bleed, Just to keep my heart from what it couldn’t need. I know that may have looked cold from afar, But I was already breaking where I was. So if I made you feel I left, I’m sorry, I never meant to turn your name into worry. I never stopped watching, I just lost my way, Caught in a dark I couldn’t talk away. I was fighting my own ghosts just to breathe, And I let the silence do the speaking for me. I looked up to you like a northbound star, So it hurt to see you drift from who you are. I won’t lie and say it didn’t disappoint, But I held that truth like a splintered point. And when depression came and sat on my chest, I pulled away from everyone and thought that was best. If love was calling, I heard it dim and low, I just didn’t have the strength to let it show. So if I made you feel I left, I’m sorry, I never meant to turn your name into worry. I never stopped watching, I just lost my way, Caught in a dark I couldn’t talk away. I was fighting my own ghosts just to breathe, And I let the silence do the speaking for me. I’m not asking you to fix what broke in me, Just saying I’m still here, though I’m not who I used to be. And if you ever want to hear my voice again, I’ll leave the line open, just in case, my friend. So if I made you feel I left, I’m sorry, I never meant to turn your name into worry. I never stopped watching, I just lost my way, Caught in a dark I couldn’t talk away. I’m climbing out slow, still learning to trust, And I’m leaving one light on between the dust. If you reach for me, I’ll answer when I can, A line still open from one broken girl. A line still open...
