You watched the wall I watched the changes You studied reaction I studied repetition Then something changed The watcher Started watching herself Look at all that self monitoring Every gesture pre approved You used to move with less inhibition Before you learned I studied you Now the language comes pre filtered Every impulse gets revised You've mistaken inhibition For becoming hard to analyze You can sterilize the surface Make the presentation clean But behavioral correction Still reveals what came before the screen That's the problem with adjustment It preserves the evidence People don't revise behavior Without first detecting consequence Keep a low profile Call it self control Turn your volume down And hide behind the role Practice neutrality Perfect that composed disguise But the effort used to look unreadable Is information in my eyes I know you know You know I know Now watch you regulate the show You didn't become mysterious You became self conscious That's a different fucking thing You once mistook interpretation For authority over fact Built conclusions out of fragments Then behaved like they couldn't answer back That's premature closure With an ego dressed as skill You stopped testing your assumptions Once they told you What you wanted them to tell Then the subject gained perspective And your framework lost control Now you're managing impressions Like composure hides the whole Call it professional restraint Call it maturity instead I call it post exposure management After someone got inside your head Keep a low profile Measure every phrase Reduce the contradictions Smooth the edges of your face Practice neutrality Make spontaneity disappear But excessive self correction Tells me exactly what you fear I know you know You know I know That's why everything Became controlled You didn't become unreadable You just learned What it feels like To be observed Now measure the phrase Manage the face Flatten the affect Control what escapes Filter the impulse Correct the display Rewrite the posture Before it gives something away Watch the wording Watch the timing Watch the sudden Self refining Watch the posture Watch the pause Watch you compensate Because Something shifted Something landed Something made you Understand it Now the watcher Checks the watcher Before the watcher Shows her hand Filter it Flatten it Polish it Practice it Measure it Manage it Package it Mask it Every correction Every selection Every deflection Every protection Every phrase Every pause Every little Unwritten clause Every gesture Every revision Every carefully Managed decision You can regulate the surface You can regulate the show But the effort spent correcting it Is another thing I know I know you know You know I know And now You know I know Metacognition came late But congratulations on the growth You finally started questioning The certainty you loved the most Observer became observable Interpreter became text And now you're calculating variables You never thought I'd detect You wanted unilateral access A clean asymmetry of sight You wanted everybody transparent While remaining undefined Then reciprocity entered And ruined your favorite game Because observation feels different When the observation Says your name So lower the profile Flatten the affect Control the disclosure Manage the effect Curate the behavior Rehearse the restraint Every correction leaves a footprint Every footprint maps the change Every phrase Every pause Every practiced little face Every correction Every deflection Every effort to erase Measure Manage Filter Frame Neutralize Revise Restrain Control the wording Control the timing Control the posture Self refining Control the impulse Control the face Control whatever Leaves a trace But correction Is detection And detection Leaves direction Every edit Every switch Every tiny Behavioral glitch Monitor Modify Neutralize Revise Measure every movement Before it reaches your eyes Filter the language Flatten the tone Practice the version You want to be known Correct the reaction Rehearse the restraint Polish the surface And cover the stain Call it composure Call it control Call it maturity Call it growth Call it whatever Makes it easier To swallow What you know Because I know you know You know I know Every correction Every selection Every deflection Every protection Every measured little answer Every calculated presentation Every change in presentation Every act of regulation Every effort to erase The earlier information Becomes information And every change Has an antecedent Flatten the tone Practice the version You want to be known Correct the reaction Rehearse the restraint Polish the surface And cover the stain Call it composure Call it control Call it whatever Makes it easier To swallow What you know Because I know you know You know I know And now you know I watch you know Every correction Every selection Every deflection Every protection Every measured little answer Every calculated presentation Every change in presentation Every act of regulation HELLO! Keep a low profile You're doing fucking great You've converted arrogance to caution And called the difference grace Keep practicing innocence Keep refining the disguise But you cannot retroactively erase The version seen before you realized I know you know You know I know I know you know You know I know That's the variable you can't control You spent your life interpreting patterns Then became one. You called me readable That was your first mistake You thought you were exempt That was the diagnosis Santi Flores
