Despair
🖤Continuation of my song "Heavy" 🖤 Second track from upcoming album _______________________________ [slow intro] Despair (... Despair, despair...) Alone in bed, With a view to the ceiling... There's restlessness in my head, I'm slowly breaking (... Despair...) [instrumental solo] The darkness embraces me with its claws. It's taking my mind, It's tearing everything out of me (...Despair...) I feel powerless, I can't bear this heavy burden. Through me runs this terrible pain. My body is numb. My gaze is empty... Am I enough, Am I my own? Fear-anger-pride-pain Everything collide... I need help... Oh [glitch drums] I've got problems... (I've got problems...) I've got problems... [glitch drums echoes] When I'm alone, when I look at myself. I'm looking for excuses for my actions. I want to be better, but I'm just bad. I know I can't lie to others, I'm only lying to myself. (I've got problems...) HELP (... help, help...) [instrumental solo] [instrumental solo] Echoes of old times glitch in my head. I think I'd scream, but my voice can't be heard. Tears flowing from anger, what's wrong with me... Who poisons my soul... Oh, wait... It's meee... I'm just adding and adding, all bad on me... The nights are the hardest, then I feel everything. ...aaaaaaa, aaa... I'm afraid I'm going to hurt myself_< [music] I've got problems... (I've got problems...) I've got problems... [glitch drums echoes] When I'm alone, when I look at myself. I'm looking for excuses for my actions. I want to be better, but I'm just bad. I know I can't lie to others. I'm only lying to myself... (I've got problems...) HELP (... help, help...) [music fades] I've got problems... (... I've got problems...) [end]
36 Comments
🛑 Lucilius 🛑☔︎︎Maybe☔︎︎ 💌 #JuneOfLove 11w ago
I think you know that's the kind of music I like. I have a few questions for you. Have you thought about creating a visual signature? Now's the time to think about it. It could be a logo, a way of creating your images, something that comes up systematically.
Nenolo 11w ago
I haven't really thought about it, but now that you've mentioned it, it sounds tempting to me. I don't know what I could put 🫣🤔
Arash.Ash 11w ago
Wonderful work ,bro! you are never alone! I'm here with my blue heart!💙👍
Nenolo 11w ago
Love your blue heart 🫂💙❤️ thank you my friend 🥹
🌹Roseofpassion🌹 11w ago
I hear u, mi querido Nenolo, and I feel the weight of this. But you are more than your pain. You are not alone, and you don’t have to bear this burden alone. Even in the darkest moments, there is light waiting for you. Your past mistakes don’t define who you are. I know I have to keep repeating that to myself. The minds play tricks, making a person feel like there not enough. Those inner demons betray, but remember you are more than enough. You matter more than you know. Te quiero mucho 🌹♥️🫂
Nenolo 11w ago
I know I shouldn't, but I'm crying now. Your words hit my heart so hard that I feel peace. Thank you for being here and for understanding me. I know it sounds strange but I feel like I have a true friend in you. You make my world so much more beautiful and thank you for that 🌹❤️🫂🥹
LightJourner 11w ago
the lyrics encompass so much emotion brother 🫂❤️
Nenolo 11w ago
Thank LJ, you are truly an amazing friend 🫂❤️
Cʏʀᴜs Rᴇᴅ 11w ago
My friend, this song is beautiful. Regardless of that, one can tell that you are struggling with yourself and worrying about something. Try not to put so much pressure on yourself. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! If you need someone to talk to, you know where to find me. 💛🫂💛🫂
Nenolo 11w ago
🥹🥹 You are truly my light, I have no words to describe how much it means to me 🫂🫂 thank you so much my friend. You are my rock 🫂🫂🥹🥹❤️❤️
Nepenthe ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜 11w ago
I find a lot of solace into making something beautiful out of what is otherwise not beautiful - like negative experiences, emotions, etc, so I identify a lot with a song like this. Also, I'm excited you're organizing a second album. I need to look more thoroughly through your playlists :O I need to check out your first album now <3
Nenolo 11w ago
Thank you very much for the kind words. These experiences are what make us stronger. It's hard, but we have to fight and never give up. I'm still struggling my way, but my head held high 🙏❤️🫂
🔹Preo-Preoccupied🔹 11w ago
❤ you don't need to be any better ... you are the best alredy 👍
Nenolo 11w ago
You also wanna make cry 🥹 Thank you so much my dear 🙏 You really are my light 😘❤️🫂🤫
Heymow 11w ago
Take care ❤️❤️
Nenolo 11w ago
❤️❤️❤️🫂
裴芸PuiWan 11w ago
the way the music builds up is intense.👏🏻👏🏻❤️
Nenolo 11w ago
🫂❤️ Thank you
Misha 🇳🇿 11w ago
interesting and fitting vocal, I like it!👍
Nenolo 11w ago
🙏🙏 Thank you so much 🤗
SoniQa 💗 11w ago
Fear-anger-pride-pain .... I think the passage is particularly well implemented 💙🌹
Nenolo 11w ago
🙏🙏 Thank you. I think most of us are struggling with this problem. We don't need to keep it inside. Thank you again for support and love you gave me ❤️❤️😘
Canine DJ 11w ago
I have to say, if it weren't for the ebat, this would make a good 21 pilots song. Also I just released a Biggie Smalls song. Maybe check that out?
Canine DJ 11w ago
ALso a new sentinel song!
Maybe ( 眉媚) 11w ago
💞 Love it! 💞
Nenolo 11w ago
❤️❤️❤️🫂
The Badfatler 11w ago
Awesome track, Nenolo! The emotion you've packed into the lyrics are vividly painting the soundscape
Nenolo 11w ago
Thank you so much my friend ❤️❤️
ᴀɴᴊᴀ ᴀꜱᴛʀᴀ⛥ 11w ago
You made something really beautiful out of your pain, respect🩵 I can totally relate to this, stay strong 🩵✨
Nenolo 11w ago
🫂Thank you for sharing and for love ❤️❤️ so happy for your support, means a world to me ❤️🫂🌍🙏
Paulie Amory💕 11w ago
Dearest dear Nexilius... 🥹💕 ever since I crushed my L1 vertebrae, the one comfort that has kept me afloat is that after I made the crash, I had a dream that took me across the universe through so many variations of reality, and I realized that EVERY one of us has a distinct, individual and perfect purpose. My dear, I listened to this song so many times, my heart responds in kind to your fears and depression. Please believe in yourself. YOU ROCK BAE, LOVED AF 😍
Nenolo 11w ago
Dear Amory, Thank you for your words of encouragement. I'm fighting and I believe. Sometimes there are days, like this, when I break. The memories go away and I feel all the sadness. The older I get, the more it seems to me that I know what my purpose is. Thank you so much. I really like your support 🫂❤️🫂❤️✨
Cool happy Cissa 11w ago
Raw emotions! 🙏🙏🙏 ❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️❣️
Nenolo 11w ago
My dear friend, thank you, thank you soooo much 🙏🫂❤️❤️
Jeffrey Myky 11w ago
Hey friend. I dropped by to listen. I wasn't disappointed. Catchy. Good rhythm and lyrics - A new star is rising like the Sun'o . You.
Nenolo 11w ago
Me 🫣 really 🤗 Thanks for making me shine. Thank you for being here. It means a lot to me 🫂🫂🫂❤️❤️❤️
MiN 11w ago
💙My dear Nenelo i think I've infected you with darkness💙
MiN 11w ago
❤️But you know you have us right with you, brilliant track❤️
Paradinosquirl 11w ago
Du hast einen unfassbar guten Vibe – merkt man auch in deiner Musik!
Nenolo 11w ago
Thank you to heaven. It means a lot to me, 🙏🥹 thank you, thank you ❤️❤️🫂