so lone wolf plus dad guilt this is how easily i can categorize a vibe and a thought now lets expand i basically go ok lone wolf i was always a loner i had to be i was surrounded by evil idiots i figured this out very young so like you do you lie to alcoholics even when i became a quote un quote alcoholic i continued to lie to all of them for my own safety you know because i was young and relied on them for survival some people leave home some people stay home and die some people stay home and almost die some people stay home, almost die, and data gather and here i am after 40 years of that writing about it because not only am i writer but im also a genius and i saw horrible things while living with these idiots and im gonna spend the rest of my life writing about it however long that is but maybe not too cause i reserve the right to just live my fuckin life whenever i want and do this whenever i want so yeah my dad was along for the ride but i dont need him i dont need anyone lone wolf alpha sigma whatever the fuck you wanna call it i can blend with the homies i love the homies but like i dont need anyone at this point zero people i could survive anywhere anyhow any way so it just is what it is i finally feel like i can tell it like it is and i have enough ammo to do it for forever probably im not even demanding anything from them other than being left the fuck alone forever but they will keep coming at me like they do but i am so beyond them and who i was at this point so yeah also so i had some guilt about abandoning dad to his own devices but again lone wolf but also hes corrupt foundationally he lies he spews at least like 5-10 seeds in my head every day just like mom did cause shes in his brain doing it thats literally how it works they infect your fuckin brain with their bullshit and then you spew it to other people and it spreads to everyone you're connected to and who they're connected to they lace some bullshit with some other bullshit and you're like man thats funny i'm gonna tell x y z and then you're spreading their cancer virus around their lie bullshit its that simple the only way to deal with it that i know of at the moment is to cut them off and cut off anyone they know sever the connection so i did it 3 days ago and look at me now and you can too! its that simple its a mind virus
