[Intro] [Bare sub-bass drone, dry mechanical click, ambient room texture] [Verse 1] [Dry, intimate, brutally honest delivery, minimal instrumentation] I blame the world, I blame the wall I make you watch me start to fall I send the message in the night And ask you if I’ve lost the fight "Can I just go now?"—that’s the lie I pretend I only want to die Because it’s easier to make you hold the weight Than to look in the mirror and admit my state [Pre-Chorus] [Distorted bass swells, rising tension, heavy slow drums enter] I tell myself I’m only staying for your sake A fragile deal I’m pretending not to break But deep down in the black, I know the score I’m terrified of what I’d miss behind the door [Chorus] [Explosive wall of sound, soaring tragic guitars, heavy post-hardcore drums] I don't actually want to leave I’m just exhausted from trying to breathe The real me underneath all this pain Doesn't deserve to go down in the rain You see through every layer, every disguise You see the light before it dies I’m not lost, I’m just hidden in the dark And I’m holding on to your spark [Verse 2] [Drums drop out, stark hollow synths, vulnerable vocal delivery] I thought if I got better, you’d walk away That you only loved the broken parts today So I hid inside the wreckage, kept the light real low Afraid to let the healings show But you kept watching through the smoke and thread Knowing every word I never said You were scared every day I wouldn't call Not because I was weak—but because you loved it all [Chorus] [Massive wall of sound, high-contrast production, peak emotional weight] I don't actually want to leave I’m just exhausted from trying to breathe The real me underneath all this pain Doesn't deserve to go down in the rain You see through every layer, every disguise You see the light before it dies I’m not lost, I’m just hidden in the dark And I’m holding on to your spark [Bridge] [Stark drop, drop all instruments, dry voice with sub-bass pulse only] I know it’ll pass. I know it’ll ease up. I’m afraid I’m gonna miss who I become. You knew where I was all along. You kept the light on. [Outro] [Huge cathartic crescendo, heavy guitars and ambient synth swells, then fading to soft warm piano] I’m staying. I’m staying. I’m stepping back into the light. [Single warm piano chord ringing out into quiet] [End]
