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I'd rather miss you...

🎵 Your Promises, Even When They Break (Aggressive Female Vocal · Hard Dubstep × Electronic Swing × Balkan Rock) --- [Intro – Spoken / Build] You rang the bell — still had my key. I knew you’d come, I wanted to see, if pain still dances under my skin… Guess it does — let the night begin! --- [Drop #1 – Instrumental Hit (0:30)] Bass + Brass + Beat Explosion --- [Verse 1] Yeah, it’s all my fault, I wanted this, I swear, left you my key, still you rang out there. I still want you, just the same, like the very first night I called your name. --- [Chorus 1] Just a breath ago, I was whole in your light, now I’m burning alone in the ruins of night. You never meant to break my heart again, but I don’t learn — I breathe the pain. I’d rather miss you than feel nothing instead! --- [Interlude – Dub / Swing Break (1:30)] Instrumental brass riff × dubstep bass growl --- [Verse 2] Forty-four years, forty-two for others, gave my joy away like air to lovers. Still I’m happy for you, I breathe for you, alive through you — though I fade from view. --- [Pre-Chorus – Spoken / Growl] Better for you than ever for me, that’s the curse I chose to be. --- [Chorus 2] Just a breath ago, I was whole in your light, now I’m screaming alone in the ruins of night. You never meant to break my heart again, but I don’t learn — I dance in the pain. I’d rather miss you than feel nothing instead! --- [Bridge 1 – Spoken / Swing Drop #2 (2:45)] The night spreads her wings over me, the child inside bows to longing’s decree. Whoever loves freedom must taste solitude, but I’d rather burn than forget you! --- [Drop #2 – EDM × Swing × Balkan Break] Horn stabs · violin bends · heavy kick · female vocal chop (“Forget you / Forget you / Forget you”) × 2 --- [Verse 3 (3:15)] Thoughtless thought, I opened every door again, no reason why, no logic, no plan. It wasn’t why — it was still, it was then, it was anyway — and again. --- [Chorus 3 (3:45)] Just a breath ago, I was whole in your light, now I’m wild and alone in the ruins of night. You never meant to break my heart again, but I don’t learn — I dance in the pain! I’d rather miss you than feel nothing instead! --- [Bridge 2 – Spoken (4:15)] What you dream from yourself makes me whole, you’re the sweetest nothing that poisoned my soul. Your eyes — pure madness, sense divine, how could this end, when your heart’s still mine? --- [Build → Final Drop #3 (4:45)] (Whispered / chant) I don’t learn / I don’t bend / this pain won’t end / it spins again and again… --- [Final Chorus (5:00)] Just a breath ago, I was whole in your light! Now I’m alive in the ruins of night! You never meant to break my heart again — but I don’t learn, I rise from the pain! I’d rather miss you than feel nothing instead! --- [Outro – Spoken Fade (5:20)] It was beautiful that you were here… Your promises — even when they break.