[Verse 1] I never really knew all the ways she was hurt before I arrived Just wish I had known for sure when she was still alive I never got to help her get through that pain I never got to help get rid of anger and shame Something was always off, my family couldn't keep stories straight I never had any proof but suspected that she just did what she had to I never pressed the issue much, I figured it wouldn't hurt to wait Just kept it inside and made it seem like I really had no clue [Chorus] I never really knew all the ways she was hurt before I arrived Just wish I had known for sure when she was still alive I never got to help my mom through her pain I never got to help get rid of anger and shame [Verse 2] Through the years, learning the pain in her life before I was born With each year deciding to let my questions wither and die Now for the rest of my life, the only thing I can do is mourn Because I loved my mom so much, I just accepted the lie [Chorus] I never got to help her get through that pain I never got to help get rid of anger and shame I never really knew all the ways she was hurt before I arrived Just wish I had known for sure when she was still alive [Outro] Held on to the lie upon which my life was built A child of rape is something I will always be Carrying pain of each and every tear she spilled Despite it all, I know that she always loved me It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt It wasn't my fault, but I will always carry that guilt
