Betrayed by Trust

You know I can not take this it's so painful I hate it you say I'm a lazy teen when you've hardly even see me. you don't understand all the hurt I felt first hand. All the times I loathed my life! How much I thought about dying! So don't you dare go talking trash about a girl that dealt with that. Oh you don't like how I acted Don't think I ever asked. How am I affecting you? this is my life that I choose. Why are you oh so nosy such a busybody You always kiss up to me tell me you'll give me what I need I thought I could really trust you. never thought this is what you'd do. When I was just a little baby You tried to say that I was crazy Tried to get my parents against me Tried to say you knew exactly what I need Why was it me you wanted to attack Tell me what did I lack? You said everyone else was an angel And acted like I was evil. You contributed to me feeling worthless! I'll never understand were you jealous? Makes me wanna scream and pull my hair! All the junk you said when I was unaware. At least I no longer have panic attacks! No longer a fear of death! I can thank you for that! The one time I ask for your help You just can't keep it quiet to yourself. All the gossip you spread its unhealthy I don't want you to keep telling me. You pretend your on my side Then backstab me hurts worse then a knife. You make me feel so ill Guess I better go take more pills! I know that I should make peace Stay calm let it be But its not as easy as it seems. Yeah not as easy as it seems