Cringe

I get A little upset at things Where I have no control So I paved a road Where I walked alone And I talked alone And I talked a lot Cause I had to cope When I felt distraught When they rocked the boat I jumped the shark And I couldn't float So it sank my heart But I found my hope And I found a spark When I went and wrote How I fell apart I found control When I found my art That was when I might have had a moment But then I went and had to show em I began to feel like I was frozen I hated every word I'd ever wrote I bit my tongue but mentally I broke Id rather put my neck inside a rope Then ever show them anything again Cause I Can't help But cringe This sounds Like shit Put my work upon display Then I'm the first to walk away It doesn't matter what they say I grind My teeth And hide My face Can't help But cringe Must sound Unhinged Cause im my biggest critic here Can't judge me if I judge myself to tears Can't help But cringe Myself To death Pick apart the pieces That I put onto the page I tried making peace But wasn't pleased with what I had to say Working hard just to meet defeat From diseases I contained Made in my own image But I hate the way it looks Im the one that did this But still I think it sucks The whole thing Is like a crime scene From The voice speaking To The rhyme scheme Know I might seem Like my self esteem Is nonexistent But the true icing Is that I think That I truly might just get it But the critic Inside me Just Cringes And tells me To quit it Cause it Can't help But cringe This sounds Like shit Put my work upon display Then I'm the first to walk away It doesn't matter what they say I grind My teeth And hide My face Can't help But cringe Must sound Unhinged Cause im my biggest critic here Can't judge me if I judge myself to tears Can't help But cringe Myself To death Sorta sentimental But it sent a mental surge Like a pot that called the kettle Every name you've ever heard Cringeworthy Maybe But deserving Can't be Cause when I felt Empty I wrote every Ending And rode through the Bending Cause I wouldn't let it End me So I write and release It's my release Relief And i might believe That it's cringe But I also believe That I'm able to cringe While I write through my teeth Can't help But cringe This sounds Like shit Put my work upon display Then I'm the first to walk away It doesn't matter what they say I grind My teeth And hide My face Can't help But cringe Must sound Unhinged Cause im my biggest critic here Can't judge me if I judge myself to tears Can't help But cringe Myself To death