in da night when she sleep I whisper schemes to da void bout breakin da rules of flesh bout hackin fate with grime she lay still in da morn light hum slow through da blinds like a ghost tryin breathe I been countin every rise in her chest like a clock that don’t tick right tryna rewind what time done bleed can’t fix dat can’t buy dat can’t scheme dat outta her spine wishin my hands could rewrite nerves like code but da code glitch every time she hurt I see that flash of flame in her jaw I see dat pain talk louder than any prayer I ever spit in da dark da world go on grindin while I stand still watchin her fight in her own skin steady drownin but smilin still and that break me deeper than bullets ever did every doc talk slick say time heal but time cold time ain’t real time a dealer sellin false hope I’m out here pawnin my soul for a cure that don’t exist she got scars like maps of wars I couldn’t win and I hate that she bleed alone sometimes while I fake peace in the corner tryna hold back rage so loud it hum electric in my teeth cause if I ever found da one who left her hurt in da first place it’d be gods that beg me stop yuh if I ever found da one who left her hurt in da first place it’d be gods that beg me stop.... if I ever found da one who left her hurt in da first place it’d be gods that beg me stop.... she wake in pain again, sunlight drag its teeth cross the blinds like a cop tryna question hope I keep whisperin’ lies like “you good, you good,” but the words crack halfway out my throat I can’t fix her body so I fix the air, fold it round her like a prayer made of smoke clock on the wall twitch tick tick then stop like it scared of me lookin’ at it too long I been schemin’ again, dreamin’ equations that hum like grief in binary tryin’ to write a backdoor into time, slip through the system, trade my years for hers quietly ain’t no god here, just me and her and the hum of the fridge like the universe breathin’ tired she laugh once in her sleep, and I swear I felt the sky shiver like heaven embarrassed I heard it see, love like this make a man go ghost in his own crib make the corners bend, make the shadows look back at you like “bro, chill” but I can’t, her name stitched in my ribs like graffiti you can’t buff out so I talk to walls, to wires, to static every hum got a pattern, every buzz a secret I start hearin’ her heartbeat in the lights, start seein’ her face in the code when I blink too long shit man just let it out night stretch slow, same loop her pain, my rage, her calm, my guilt we orbit each other like broken planets still actin like it’s gravity not grief and I get these flashes visions of rewritin’ reality like a verse spit so true it undo what hurt her so I try: I burn sage, I burn code, I burn time each line a wire, each breath a patch note for the universe I tell the void “take my shine, take my skin, take the name Nullus too” she still rise slow, eyes half flame half prayer say “baby we good, stop fixin what’s not yours to fix” and that slice me deeper than steel cause I know she right, but I ain’t wired for peace I’m wired for fightin’ ghosts I can’t punch she... she still rise slow, eyes half flame half prayer say “baby we good, stop fixin what’s not yours to fix” and that slice me deeper than steel cause I know she right
