Intro (Spoken – No Music, Just Atmosphere) 3 a.m. again. Ceiling fan still spinning. Mind still racing. Doctors say “take the pills,” Preachers say “have more faith,” Friends say “you’ll be alright.” But nobody hears the war in my head. ⸻ Verse 1 (Spoken – Soft Piano / Pad) I lay in bed for hours Staring at shadows on the wall. Every memory reloads itself, Like my brain forgot how to uninstall pain. PTSD don’t clock out. Anxiety don’t take breaks. Depression whispers every night, “Man… just quit the race.” I got prayers in one hand, Prescriptions in the other. Trying to figure out How a grown man still feels like he’s drowning undercover. ⸻ Build (Half-Spoken / Rising Drums) They don’t see the panic. They don’t feel the fear. They don’t hear the voices That been screaming in my ear. But I’m still here. Still breathing. Still believing… Somehow. ⸻ Chorus (FULL BAND – SING / SHOUT) I left the gun on the table tonight Didn’t give in, didn’t lose my life Darkness tried to steal my sun But I chose tomorrow — I left the gun Yeah, I’m tired, yeah, I’m numb But I’m still standing — I left the gun ⸻ Verse 2 (Spoken – Beat + Bass) I smile in public. Joke with friends. Go to work. Pay my bills. Act like everything’s fine. But inside? It’s a battlefield. Flashbacks, cold sweats, Memories that don’t rewind. Trazodone helps me sleep, But it don’t heal my soul. Paxil slows the storm, But it don’t make me whole. I fight myself every night Just to see tomorrow. Some days I win. Some days I barely crawl through sorrow. ⸻ Pre-Chorus (Sung – Building) Every prayer I whisper low “God, please don’t let me go” When I’m hanging by a thread You remind me I’m not dead ⸻ Chorus (Full Power) I left the gun on the table tonight Didn’t trade my breath for goodbye Hell tried to claim my soul But I took control — I left the gun Yeah, I’m broken, yeah, I’m scarred But I’m still here — I got heart ⸻ Bridge (Spoken – Breakdown / Minimal Guitar) Let me be honest. Some nights I’m scared of myself. Scared of my thoughts. Scared of what I might do When nobody’s watching. But then I think about my family. My faith. My future. The people who’d carry my name If I didn’t. And I put it down. ⸻ Build-Up (Sung / Chant Style) I’m not done. I’m not gone. I’m still standing. Still strong. ⸻ Final Chorus (Biggest / Anthem Style) I left the gun on the table tonight Chose my faith, chose my fight Chose my life, chose my son Chose my future — I left the gun If the darkness comes again I’ll rise up — I’ll rise again ⸻ Outro (Spoken – Music Fades) Still breathing. Still praying. Still fighting. Still here. And tomorrow… I fight again.
