[Verse 1] Had a whole plan and we left that place Dreams packed up with us, faith in the tank Thought we was driving toward a new beginning Didn't know the beginning would look like this Five souls Four doors Nowhere to call home [Verse 2] I came here with a vision, I can see it so clear New city, new business, better life by the year Got my woman by my side, got my babies in the back Everything I ever wanted, everything I never had Then the welcome got cold and the doors got strange Funny how blood get distant when your circumstances change Now the clothes in the truck, whole life rearranged Trying to smile at my children while I'm swallowing pain Nine-year-old watching me, so I gotta watch me He don't need to see a man let the pressure stop dreaming So I'm teaching him the world from the passenger seat How to think for himself, how to stand on his feet Four-year-old baby girl got a world of her own Sometimes I wonder if she know we ain't really got a home Little one, almost one, sleeping peaceful through the storm And I'm looking at all three, like I gotta keep 'em warm Mama gotta work, so I'm here through the day Laptop open, building mine, all the babies wanna play Trying to answer every question, trying to make another way Trying to be a businessman and daddy in the same space And some nights I get tired, and the weight sleep can't fit 'Cause a man don't just carry what the whole family gets He carries what they don't know, but he won't let 'em see The fear that if he breaks down, who the hell they gon' need [Verse 3] Holding up a house that ain't got walls yet Trying not to drown in all the things I ain't solved yet Everybody needs something, so I don't fall yet Even when I'm hurting, I'm the one they call yet I thought a home was somewhere we could lay our heads Now I'm learning it's the people that'll stay instead We ain't where we're going, but we ain't done yet Maybe we were building in the breaking all alone yet And I ain't going to lie, there's another kind of pain When the man that made you still don't show up when it rain All these years, part of me still wishing he would change Still reaching for a father while I'm fathering through pain It's a different kind of empty, it's a different kind of scar Knowing somebody breathing, but they always feel far Thinking maybe this the moment he'll remember who you are And he shows you one more time, you gotta carry your own heart [Bridge] I used to get angry Like why you can't be better Why I gotta learn alone what you were supposed to teach I'm raising up a boy and breaking cycles at the same time With no example saying somewhere I can reach, then something hit me I'm looking in the backseat, that's my blood, that's my family That's the branch that grew from everything they handed Why am I still begging broken roots to give me shade When I got three little lives watching every move I make I can't keep mourning what my family never was Well, I'm too busy building everything my family can become I can't force another man to give the love he never gave I can make damn sure my babies never question if I stayed So I'm hitting every lesson, every lesson, every meal Every bad day, every laugh inside this truck somehow still finds its way And mama might get distant when the pressure gets too loud But she comes back from working, and we're still figuring it out It ain't pretty, it ain't perfect, some days love look like survival Some days romance are just same I know you're tired, I got you Maybe this ain't punishment, maybe this is pressure Maybe we're finding out what stays when life removes the extras No extra room, no separate space No doors to disappear behind Just us, every flaw, every fear, every day, every night And somehow we're getting closer, my son knows me better I'm learning my children, I'm learning my woman I'm learning myself [Outro] And maybe before God gives us the walls He wanted to make sure we knew how to hold each other up Yeah So now when that frustration start crawling in my chest I remind myself, my children don't need me to have everything yet They need a father who's present, a father who's steady A father who can look at some darkness and still teach them the way My boy getting knowledge that I wish I had young My daughters know daddy when they look for someone Their mama know, even if we bend and I ain't running And I'm starting to see something beautiful be coming One day we'll turn the key and walk into our place Set the bags on the floor, see the look on everybody's face Kids running through the room, mama finally got a space Every night inside that truck, want to hit a different way 'Cause those weren't every days, those were foundations Every argument survived, every conversation Every dollar that got stretched, every ounce of dedication We were building us before we ever built a location So I don't hate this road I just hate what it costs Now I want it all I'm grateful for it all
