Years taught to stand tall stand strong, they don't see what I'm standing on. Years of weight... Years of silence... Years of being told... "You're strong." No one see the fall... Just see me stand strong stand tall, Dont see me get back up..... Never saw the nights... [whispered] When I couldn't give a fuck. I learned to hide the cracks... behind the mask. Buried everything inside. Every time I showed the weakness... I felt like I had to justify. "you don't need others help." Conditioned me to believe just that. So I stopped asking why... Stopped reaching for a hand... And became that man... [whispered] the soldier again... The one that first found light in the dark I'm making peace with the demons. but some pain and memories will forever last So don't tell me I'm strong... Like that's all you need to know. You never saw the weight... You only watched me carry it alone. There's a boy I barely know... Living somewhere in time Eleven years of empty spaces... In 6 years classed a man. Age of 4 happy memories tangled with the madness in my mind. memories of smiles, us laughing on the loungeroom floor .. Happiness consumed by darkness is all that remains, no new happy memories, Years missed never to regain. Wondering how he's grown in all this lost time. That's a weight I never dropped. Think about it everyday. So don't tell me I'm strong... Like that's all you need to know. You never saw the weight... You only watched me carry it alone...... Some wounds don't bleed... never heal to leave a scar, forever open, stings like a fresh cut, thats touched by cold air. Reminding of painful memories, can't leave them in the past. i've got ghosts behind me... From the man I used to be. A rage I couldn't control.. There's many regrets, things I can't change, be forgiven or forget. A dark stormy night I still remember, still see when I close my eyes. A silhouette stood over me, demanding what was mine. Something in me broke. punching until I couldn't tell... Whose blood was on my hands........ I don't wear that like a medal. I carry what I did. That's the man I became... Was like that then for many years. Before I learned enough was enough, Had to contain it, Start a new chapter Keep him locked within.... Every day he's screams So don't tell me I'm strong... Like that's all you need to know. You never saw the weight... You only watched me carry it alone...... When the mask wouldn't stay on Madness consumed the calm [whispered] It fucked with my mind So I reached for a hand Got told I didn't need help. Got told i was strong. So I picked it up. Put the mask back on. Again strong I become..... So don't tell me I'm strong... Like that's all you need to know. You never saw the weight... You only watched me carry it alone..... I carried every fucking thing... Swallowed every fucking pain. They all see me standing... Never noticed me fall. Then you said you couldn't trust me... After I buried myself and gave it all... After I became the man... Who Had to help himself. Because when I needed someone... There was no one there to help Don't ask why I'm different... Don't ask where the old me went. You told me I was strong... You never tried to understand Whats under the mask Ive put on
