"did you write that?" yeah. "all of it?" mostly. "right." half eleven, fourth go in the notes app. every version starts with what she got wrong. first one said sorry, then spent three paragraphs explaining why, technically, i wasn't. copied it over. "make this less defensive." it cut the bit about her tone. i put it back. took it out. put half back. gave me "i appreciate your perspective". nah. said it again. nobody talks like that. changed "we both got loud" to "i raised my voice". left that one. couldn't argue with it. kept the sentence about letting her have some space. took the last line out. looked needy. went through it again. pretty good, honestly. got me sounding like someone who'd taken a minute. hit send when the battery warning came up. put it face down. flipped it over before it buzzed. it said seen. three dots. gone. did you write that? yeah, more or less. did you mean it? i meant what i said. did you write that? all of it? don't do that. did you write that? all of it? yes, i did. did you write that? yeah, more or less. did you mean it? i meant what i said. did you write that? all of it? don't do that. did you write that? all of it? yes, i did. she screenshots the line about not pushing her. underneath it's my next three messages. "can we just talk for five minutes?" "you've got me completely wrong here." and one more about the way she took it. "you said you'd leave it tonight." "yeah, but i need to clear something up." she sends the sentence back with one word circled. leave. i start arguing what i intended by it. because i did intend it. at some point. i say that part about space was mine. well, the idea was. maybe not the sentence. i kept it. fine. what's the difference? she doesn't reply. i do anyway. did you write that? yeah, more or less. did you mean it? i meant what i said. did you write that? all of it? don't do that. did you write that? all of it? yes, i did. did you write that? did you write that? did you write that? did you write that? all of it? yes, i did. thursday, bloke from work owes me sixty for the hire car. i paid on my card when his got declined. sends six paragraphs about taking accountability. "i sincerely value our friendship." we've had lunch together about twice. not a word about friday. or sixty dollars. i type "mate, just pay me when you get paid." nearly ask him who wrote the rest. can't be arsed starting that conversation. back in the notes app. first draft's still there. right down the bottom, one line i took out: "just tell me we're alright." i start another message. "look, i know i said i'd leave you alone, but..." delete the but. delete the rest. did you write that? yeah, more or less. did you mean it? i meant what i said. did you write that? all of it? at the time. did you write that? all of it? i don't know. did you write that? did you write that? did you write that? did you write that? write that? did you write that? yeah, more or less. did you write that? did you mean it? did you write that all of it did you write that i don't know did you write that? did you write that? did you write that? did you write that?
