[Intro] Lookin' at the wreckage I made again Another bad choice Swimmin' in the medicine Yeah I know I messed up That's the painful truth now Stuck in this life Gotta break through somehow [Verse 1] Pills on the counter Screen on my face Lyin' to myself Sayin' "it's just a phase" Friends hit my phone I let it just ring Hide in my hoodie Blame everything Calendar empty Head full of smoke Smile in the mirror feels more like a joke Scrolling through faces I used to know Wonderin' when did I let it all go I keep receipts from the nights I regret Texts I don't send Words I don't say yet Heart like a room that I never clean Dust on the trophies from old 16 [Pre-Chorus] And I keep tellin' myself "one last time" (one last time) Same old script Same tired line Every sunrise feels like debt Owed to a past I can't forget [Chorus] Yeah I know I messed up That's the honest truth now Livin' in the haze Gotta make a new vow Gotta break free from this cycle I know Gotta break free from this cycle I know (I know) Yeah I've been fallin' but I'm reachin' out now Bleedin' in the dark just to figure it out Gotta break free from this cycle I know Gotta break free from this cycle I know (I know) [Verse 2] Room full of clothes that I never wear Phone full of ghosts who said they care Voicemail from mom that I still don't play 'Cause I don't know what I'm gonna say Rent overdue Dreams on the shelf Promised the world Can't promise myself Baseline of panic under my skin Smile on my face Storm in the wind Told my reflection "we'll change next week" Next week turned into half this year I've been speakin' fluent self-defeat Talkin' in circles with my fear [Pre-Chorus] I keep drawin' my lines in sand (in sand) Watch 'em wash away again Same excuse in a different dress "Tomorrow" tattooed on my chest [Chorus] Yeah I know I messed up That's the honest truth now Livin' in the haze Gotta make a new vow Gotta break free from this cycle I know Gotta break free from this cycle I know (I know) Yeah I've been fallin' but I'm reachin' out now Bleedin' in the dark just to figure it out Gotta break free from this cycle I know Gotta break free from this cycle I know [Verse 3] Late night drives with the tank on red Tryna out-run what's in my head Street signs blur But the thoughts stay clear Every wrong turn just leads back here Therapist number saved in my phone Hover on call Then leave it alone Tell myself "others got it worse" Use their pain just to hide my hurt I say "I'm fine" in a practiced tone Turn my trauma into jokes I own People laugh and the moment's gone But the punchline echoes when I'm alone [Pre-Chorus] I've been afraid of the honest talk (so scared) So I pace these same four blocks But my shadow's gettin' tired of me Gotta choose what I'm gonna be [Chorus] Yeah I know I messed up That's the honest truth now Livin' in the haze Gotta make a new vow Gotta break free from this cycle I know Gotta break free from this cycle I know (I know) Yeah I've been fallin' but I'm reachin' out now Bleedin' in the dark just to figure it out Gotta break free from this cycle I know Gotta break free from this cycle I know [Verse 4] First step small Like gettin' out of bed Drinkin' some water Clearin' my head Open the blinds Let a little light in Feels like treason against how it's been Delete that
