[Verse 1 — restrained, intimate] Your coat ain’t on the chair But I still see it there I got good at losing people Then pretending I don’t care Your name’s still in my phone I never learned to erase Guess deleting seven letters Don’t delete what I became [Pre-Chorus — building] I could say we lost our way I could say we wanted more But I know whose fucking hand Was the first to shut that door [Chorus — OPEN UP / BELTED] Part of me wishes you HAAAAATED MEEEE Part of me wishes you CHEEEEATED Give me one damn reason to blame you ’Cause God knows I fucking NEEEEED IT Part of me wishes I lost you For something I couldn’t have changed But you gave me every reason to love you And I threw it AWAAAAAAAY [Verse 2 — more confession, drums begin building] I could blame the late nights I could blame my pride I could blame every bottle That I emptied just to hide But the room got fucking louder When you stopped calling my name Funny how I wanted freedom Till there was nobody left to blame I remember every warning Every “Tyler, please don’t go” I kept thinking you’d forgive me Till you finally told me no [Pre-Chorus — stronger] I don’t get to pick a side I don’t get to keep the score You were fighting for the both of us While I was halfway out the door [Chorus — full band / harder vocal] Part of me wishes you HAAAAATED MEEEE Part of me wishes you CHEEEEATED Give me one damn reason to blame you ’Cause God knows I fucking NEEEEED IT Part of me wishes I lost you For something I couldn’t have changed But you gave me every reason to love you And I threw it AWAAAAAAAY [Instrumental Break — distorted guitar carries chorus melody] [Bridge — pull instrumentation back / near-confession] If I saw you tonight I know what I’d say I wouldn’t ask you to love me I wouldn’t ask you to stay I’d tell you I’m sorry Without asking forgiveness ‘Cause “sorry” ain’t redemption When somebody else has to live with it And if you’re finally happy… I won’t get in the way [brief pause] But I’d be fucking lying If I said that doesn’t break me Every. Single. DAAAAAAAY [Final Chorus — biggest vocal / desperate belting] PART OF ME WISHES YOU HAAAAATED MEEEE PART OF ME WISHES YOU CHEEEEATED I NEED ONE DAMN REASON TO BLAME YOU ‘CAUSE I CAN’T FUCKING TAKE BEEEEING— THE REASON YOU LEFT ME THE REASON WE CHANGED You gave me every reason to love you AND I THREW IT AWAAAAAAAY [Outro — instruments dropping away] Part of me wishes you hated me… Maybe then this wouldn’t hurt. But you loved me. [quiet] And I made sure that wasn’t enough.
