Somewhere In Between

[Verse 1 — intimate] Spent my whole life Tryna disappear in crowded rooms Too weird for the cool kids Too awkward to break through Everybody looked certain Like they knew who they were I was overthinkin’ every sentence Every look, every word Had a few real friends Late night drives, cheap gas station lights Laughin’ like the world Couldn’t touch us for the night Funny how the smallest moments Stay the longest in your head Funny how the people that save you Never know what they did ⸻ [Pre-Chorus — restrained] Everybody makes it look easy Maybe I just feel too much Maybe ignorance is beautiful But beauty still gathers dust ⸻ [Chorus — cathartic] Somewhere in between Who I am and who I’m tryna be Feelin’ everything And somehow nothin’ inside me Everybody fits somewhere Why can’t I? Why can’t I? I spent my whole life disappearin’ Before anybody could leave me behind ⸻ [Verse 2 — emotional build] My brother makes everybody laugh My sister lights every room And I learned to stay quiet So nobody learned the truth Mom was the one place That ever really felt safe And when she left Something in me changed Dad still apologizes For things that weren’t his fault Still carried all of us When life got hard And I know love is worth the pain But pain still tears at the heart Cause when I feel somethin’ I feel all of it ⸻ [Pre-Chorus — rising tension] Everybody says it gets better Maybe they’re right But some nights I still drive for hours Just tryna outrun my mind ⸻ [Chorus — emotional release] Somewhere in between Who I am and who I’m tryna be Feelin’ everything And somehow nothin’ inside me Everybody fits somewhere Why can’t I? Why can’t I? I spent my whole life disappearin’ Before anybody could say goodbye ⸻ [Bridge — almost whispered] Maybe I was never broken Maybe I just see too deep Maybe all this overthinkin’ Comes from needin’ to be seen Maybe bein’ different hurts Cause I know how lonely it gets But I’d still rather feel everything Than be numb again ⸻ [Final Chorus — full explosion] Somewhere in between Who I was and who I’m scared to be Still learnin’ how to let somebody Get close to me Everybody fits somewhere Maybe I don’t Maybe I won’t But if my heart still breaks this hard At least I know it still works