[VERSE 1] The curtains closed The credits rolled I gave you something clean to hold Said I survived Said I moved on Made it sound like nothing stayed wrong I cut the names I cut the scenes I cut around everything I mean You got the ending I took the rest I made the lie Sound like my best [PRE-CHORUS] Here’s the truth— I made it easy Here’s the truth— So you could believe me Everything healed Everybody changed That’s the story That’s not what happened [CHORUS] I LIED SO YOU COULD LOVE THE ENDING I LIED SO THEY COULD KEEP THEIR NAMES I kept their secrets To prove love could be different Then love became mercy And mercy made me pay I spared your name I paid the difference Every fucking day [VERSE 2] I could’ve told you Who did what Who watched me bleed Who called my bluff I could’ve dragged it Into the light Made every monster testify But I wanted love To mean something else Not another knife Not somebody else So I swallowed proof I buried blame And every time I protected your name I erased mine [PRE-CHORUS] Don’t call it forgiveness I never said that Don’t call it closure I never had that I chose the silence I know what I did I thought mercy meant This is how you live [CHORUS] I LIED SO YOU COULD LOVE THE ENDING I LIED SO THEY COULD KEEP THEIR NAMES I kept their secrets To prove love could be different Then love became mercy And mercy made me pay I spared your name I paid the difference Every fucking day [BRIDGE] How many times can I break? How many times can we fake it? How many times can I say “It’s done” Before I fucking hate it? I gave you peace I gave them grace I gave myself No fucking place To put the blood To put the blame So I carried both And called it change [BREAKDOWN] NO NAMES NO STORIES NO TRIAL NO GLORY I KEPT THE SECRET I KEPT THE SHAME YOU KEPT YOUR LIFE I KEPT THE PAIN I THOUGHT THAT LOVE MEANT ANOTHER WAY THEN LOVE BECAME MERCY AND MERCY MADE ME PAY [FINAL CHORUS] So here’s the truth— I lied Not because nothing happened Because too much did I gave you closure Because somebody needed it I kept their secrets Because I needed love to mean more than this Maybe it did Maybe it didn’t I only know I’m still paying for it The curtains closed The credits rolled You thought the story ended I spared their names I buried the ending And if you want the truth— That was the lie.
