The Man I Used To Be

[Verse 1] I met him in the mirror... same eyes, same old hunger, same lock in the same old key. He smiled like a scar I know, and I felt the floor go hollow as the cold came back to name. [Pre-Chorus] I thought I buried him deep, but the soil has a memory and it opens when I fear. [Chorus] I fear the man I used to be; he knows the shape of me, and he comes when I am weak. I fear the man I used to be; he lives in my every thought until I cannot think. [Verse 2] There are nights he climbs my ribs... puts his hands around my future and calls it just a test. He sits down in my silence wearing my old shame; every promise flinches at his name. [Pre-Chorus] I thought I had outrun the wolves that learned my face, but they wait in the corners of my grace. [Chorus] I fear the man I used to be; he knows the shape of me, and he comes when I am weak. I fear the man I used to be; he lives in my every thought until I cannot think. [Bridge] If I hear that voice, I do not belong to it. I am not the ash. I am the fire that knows! [Final Chorus] I fear the man I used to be; he knows the shape of me, and he comes when I am weak. I fear the man I used to be; he lives in my every thought but... he won't get all of me! [Outro] Not tonight, not this breath, not the boy beneath the debt... I am here, and he is not the end!