nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu Step right up, it’s safe inside my head (That’s a lie but we’ll ignore what I said) I sell tickets to my breakdown cheap Front row seats to me losing sleep Tightrope walker? That’s my self-esteem No net below, just “try harder” screams I smile so wide my jaw clicks loose Crowd says “cute,” I say “abuse” nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu Popcorn thoughts all over the floor I trip on the same one I tripped on before They say “relax, it’s just a phase” Cool, then why’s it been years and days? nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu My mind’s a circus, what a treat Clowns with knives and shaky feet They trip, they cry, they steal my face Then ask me why I can’t “just be okay” My mind’s a circus, laugh track loud I’m the joke and I take a bow If I fall apart, don’t make a sound Ruins the vibe for everyone around nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu Lion in a cage made outta fear Gets fed when someone gets too near Ringmaster looks just like me Screams “be normal” aggressively There’s a mirror maze behind my eyes Every version swears the other lies One says “love them,” one says “run” One says “rest,” one loads the gun nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu I juggle thoughts like flaming balls Drop one and the whole tent falls Applause feels fake, silence stings I hate both equally, funny thing nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu My mind’s a circus, messy act Sad girls smiling like a contract Fire-eaters swallow regret Then burp it back as “I’m not upset” My mind’s a circus, broken ride Goes real fast then stops inside They scream for more, I fake a grin Encore starts, I black out again nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu Don’t worry I’m fine I practiced this line I stitched myself With party lights So you wouldn’t see Where I die nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu My mind’s a circus, same old trick Make it funny so it doesn’t stick If I joke first, you can’t hurt me That’s the rule, apparently My mind’s a circus, tent won’t close I clean the blood and strike a pose If you love me, love the noise Love the fear, love the void Please clap. I’m dying. nununununununu🦁🎪🤡nununununununu
