Smoke and Noise [Intro] I was quiet for so long I forgot I had a voice Now when I try to say Iโm hurting It comes out like smoke and noise [Verse 1] The room gets smaller My chest gets tight I try to hold the ocean Behind my teeth all night I count my breathing I bite my tongue But something starts to fracture Where the fear has lived too long I know Iโm not always right I know I donโt land it clean Sometimes the fear becomes a fire And burns through what I mean [Chorus] And I donโt recognize me When the smoke fills up my mouth When the words turn into weapons And I canโt pull them out What hurts the most Is youโre witnessing the flame Not the pressure that was building Before everything changed I never meant to be cruel I was just hurting underneath Soft things burn the loudest When theyโve had no room to breathe [Verse 2] I tried to do it different Tried to tell the truth out loud Tried to let you see me Before the pain came pouring out But honesty met resistance And something in me snapped All the hurt I tried to swallow Came pouring out like ash Now Iโm choking on the fire I was trying to keep down And I hear myself from somewhere I donโt recognize the sound [Pre-Chorus] I wish I could turn back time I wish I could take away my mistakes I wish sometimes I had better self-control And didnโt let the fire take my place [Chorus] And I donโt recognize me When the smoke fills up my mouth When the words turn into weapons And I canโt pull them out What hurts the most Is youโre witnessing the flame Not the pressure that was building Before everything changed I never meant to be cruel I was just hurting underneath Soft things burn the loudest When theyโve had no room to breathe [Bridge] The pressure builds in silence Till one spark becomes a flood And suddenly the hands I love Are covered in my blood Now all I can see is the damage Not the years I tried to change Not the strength it took to soften Not the work beneath the flame Now my mind calls it evidence That Iโm still who I used to be Then every word comes rushing out Before the calm can get to me [Final Chorus] And I donโt recognize me When the smoke fills up my mouth When the words cut through the silence And I canโt take them back now What hurts the most Is how quickly things can change How one fire can erase All the healing that Iโve made I never meant to be cruel I was just hurting underneath Soft things burn the loudest When theyโve had no room to breathe [Outro] I was quiet for so long I forgot I had a voice Now when I try to say Iโm hurting It comes out like smoke and noise I was quiet for so long I forgot I had a choice Now Iโm standing in the ashes Of the fire in my voice
