[Intro] [Instrumental — lo-fi crackle, distant guitar, tape hiss, slow drum loop] [Verse 1] I'm standing on the platform again The train goes sideways and the world turns red Forty seven people and I walk away With dust on my jacket and a ringing in my head I've been here before I've been here so many times before The faces blur together in the smoke And I'm the one who always finds the door [Pre-Chorus] [Soft, close vocal, almost a whisper] Why is it always me Standing in the after Why is it always me Still breathing in the quiet [Extended Instrumental Break] [Chorus] I keep waking up In the middle of the wreckage I keep waking up When everyone else goes still I keep waking up And I don't know what it means anymore I just keep waking up I keep waking up [Verse 2] The bridge collapse... The building... The ferry... Third year running, different city, same result I've started keeping count in a notebook Two hundred and eleven, give or take I called a doctor once, then a priest They both looked at me like I was something wrong I stopped trying to explain it after that And started just apologizing for being alive [Pre-Chorus] Why is it always me Standing in the after Why is it always me Still breathing in the quiet [Extended Instrumental Break] [Chorus] I keep waking up In the middle of the wreckage I keep waking up When everyone else goes still I keep waking up And I don't know what it means anymore I just keep waking up I keep waking up [Bridge — barely audible, lo-fi fading in and out] I tried to make it stop once... Twice... The third time I just laughed Because even that Wouldn't take And now I'm back in the dream again The same smoke, the same hands reaching The same silence at the end And me Still here Still here [Extended Instrumental Break] [Verse 3] Last night I dreamed the whole thing over The faces, all of them, every single one They look at me before it happens Like they know I'm the one that's going to run I don't run I never run I just end up outside somehow With their names I never learned Written on my hands That wash off in the rain Every time Every time [Final Chorus — fragile, exhausted] I keep waking up In the middle of the wreckage I keep waking up When everyone else goes still I keep waking up I don't know why I'm still here anymore I just keep waking up [Extended Instrumental Break] [Outro] [Lo-fi crackle, single guitar note repeating, fading] I keep waking up I keep waking up I keep— [Tape cuts] ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- A lo-fi indie pop portrait of a person who survives every catastrophe — train derailments, bridge collapses, ferry disasters — while everyone around them dies. Told through the lens of recurring nightmares where past and present blur together, the song captures the accumulating weight of impossible survival: the confusion, the guilt, the isolation, the doctors and priests who don't know what to say. A brief mention of failed attempts to end the exhaustion sits quietly in the bridge, not dwelt upon — just one more thing that wouldn't take. The lo-fi production mirrors the dreamlike, fragmented state of someone living permanently inside a trauma they can't explain. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Bingo Board — 2026 [A1] GoGo × Shame [B1] Klezmer × Thirst [C1] Mongolian Throat Singing × Entropy [D1] Instrumental Only × Aerobics [E1] Native American Flute × Democracy [F1] Hopera × Mushroom / Fungi [A2] Rap × Nature [B2] Delta Blues × Dark Ages [C2] Grand Country × Uplifting [D2] Motown × Awakening [E2] Surf Rock × Surrealism [F2] Accordion × Train Hopping [A3] Chap Hop × Muscle Flex [B3] Witch House × Shed Your Burden [C3] Ska × Conflict [D3] Cyberpunk × Transmittable [E3] Groove Metal × Gnomes [F3] Wonky × Ice Cream [A4] Yacht Rock × Love [B4] Screamo × Bubblegum [C4] Fado Phonk × Africa Language [D4] Electronic Dance × 42 [E4] R&B Funk × Banana Split [F4] Skweee × Dating [A5] Lo-fi Indie Pop × Cheating Death [B5] Krautgaze Drone Rock × Heartbreak [C5] Balkan Folk × Transformation [D5] NeoFolk × Hardship [E5] Classical Music × Bird [F5] Alternative Rock × Courage [A6] Harpsichord Symphonic Metal × Faith [B6] Vocal Only / Acapella × Hope [C6] Ballad × Seduction [D6] Psychedelic Newgrass × Philosophy [E6] Yodeling × High Fantasy [F6] Punkrock × Awkward Fathers ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ © 2026 Ande Records Lyrics by Ande All rights reserved. https://ande-records.se/
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