[Intro] I've been that fuckin' loser (pause) choosing not to lose it (pause) didn't wanna do anything (pause) wish I changed a little sooner... [Verse 1] White clouds, dry mouth With a big heart Self doubt, shit spout Where do I start? Lost cause Police standing at the door Asking bout my whereabouts And have I seen this face before? Uh Held down, hate town I just stay home Big clown, unbound Should've stayed alone Life's a chore when you haven't heard your call What do I even bother for? But I can't help, I'm wanting more uh [prechorus] I can't believe I fell like that They ghost, but I just don't see myself getting down like that I'm focused on those things that just don't get me anywhere Watching love just disappear Guess I'm a clown like that [Instrumental post chorus chant] I've been that fuckin' loser (pause) choosing not to lose it (pause) didn't wanna do anything (pause) wish I changed a little sooner (pause) pass the point of perfect pictures (pause) they say that I might need the scriptures (pause) If I ever need a fucking thing (pause) I wouldn't ever tell you bitches [Verse 2] I'm in love with the solitude all that party and bullshit ain't got me amused I have never really followed all the hype quick to mellow out the mic coz the music has no substitute I've been a dude trying to grow with the flow but I know I gotta go to that dark place Spending time on a time waste On my mind, feel defined Least I know that I got fine taste She held me up when I fell And I'm in debt Though it was going pretty well Still I stayed wrecked Woke up in mornings with a warning in my heart I'm recording all my dreams that have been kept Slept through all the rough parts [Instrumental post chorus chant] I've been that fuckin' loser (pause) choosing not to lose it (pause) didn't wanna do anything (pause) wish I changed a little sooner (pause) pass the point of perfect pictures (pause) they say that I might need the scriptures (pause) If I ever need a fucking thing (pause) I wouldn't ever tell you bitches [bridge] I think I'm living in pain (ay) got nothing to give in my name (ay) I don't have shit else to blame it's my brain and my job to stop going insane (ay) You can't get rid of this purpose (ay) you're bullshit just makes this more worth it (ay) it sounds like I'm speaking in cursive I serve it, I guess you could call it a service [full-energy fast rap vocals and beat drop breakdown] And when they look up at this light I provide, they'll ask why they all tried to deny and subside it I fry all their wires with my style, make it violent they silent coz I went all out like a tyrant don't try it, it's why they don't mess with the kid - don't fuck with my shit coz it's best as it is - Don't even try step to this mad pessimist make it pop like a cyst, no existence, coz bitch [postchorus] I've been that fuckin' loser (pause) choosing not to lose it (pause) didn't wanna do anything (pause) wish I changed a little sooner (pause) pass the point of perfect pictures (pause) they say that I might need the scriptures (pause) I don't need a fucking witness (pause) If I ever need a fucking thing (pause) [outro] I've been that fuckin' loser (pause) choosing not to lose it (pause) didn't wanna do anything (pause) wish I changed a little sooner I wouldn't ever tell you bitches
