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Ashes of My Many Selves

Original.C.Fowl
Original.C.Fowl
GENRES: [GOTHIC TRAP], [DARKWAVE RAP], [EMO DARK HOP], [SHADOW POETIC] INSTRUMENTATION: [808 Sub Bass – long glide with gritty edges, sidechained pulse], [Dark Trap Drums – tight kick, sharp snare, triplet ghost hats], [Distorted Guitar Drone – low droning texture under verses], [Detuned Piano – sparse single-note accents and outro chords], [Ambient Choir Pad – low dark harmonic layer, wide reverb], [Organ Drone – uneasy low-frequency sustain], [String Swells – rising tension in hook and bridge], [Atmospheric Noise – tape hiss, low wind, room hum], [Sub Drops – transitions], [FX – Reverse Cymbal, Gated Reverb Tail] VOCALS: [Male Vocal – Low Baritone / Mid-Low], [Tone – Confessional, Worn, Intimate], [Delivery – Half-spoken half-rapped storytelling with grounded pacing], [Texture – Slight rasp, light distortion, compressed presence], [Effects – Subtle delay, light room reverb, layered doubles in hook]

[VERSE 1] I put my demons in the ground, Shoveled dirt till my arms gave out, Thought the silence would stick around— But my mind still screams, still shouts. Yeah, I “killed” the parts that tore at me, But grief don’t die that easily. I confess— I've never known peace, reality leaks through the seams, I’m patchin’ holes I can’t even see. Maybe my consciousness cracked through the fourth wall, Spillin’ thoughts to the cosmos, I’m talkin' to y’all. My species— Some act wild, ape-like, throwin' their feces, Watch their own damn pride fall to pieces, Chasin’ mirrors that don’t ever please us. [PRE-HOOK] Baby, I burn bridges before I cross em', Just to watch the way the flames glow. Smoke spells out truths the living forget— Wisdom lives in what’s left in the ashes below. [HOOK] Lay the ashes of my many selves to rest, Physical death to the ones I repressed. Black hearts thump in hollow chests— Our thoughts blessed Right before we exhale the last breath. Lay ’em down, lay ’em down— Let the ashes rest. Lay ’em down, lay ’em down— Let the ashes rest. Lay ’em down, lay ’em down— Let the ashes rest. [VERSE 2] Shadow-stitched soul from a busted past, Crawled out the wreckage thinkin’ it wouldn’t last. Cold— But the breath in my lungs finally burns black, Eyes open wide like I dodged an attack. I built peace outta fractured bones, Held together by old mistakes, heavy as loaded stones. Even the ground knew all my great sins— Felt ’em vibrate through my feet again. Red-rum, drunk thoughts make my words untrue, Words come out slurry like they slipped the glue. Always drownin’ myself then swimmin’ through, Came out gaspin’, born brand-new. Black Funeral One—no mourners near, Die inside nightly just to make it through the year. Looked at the cold, the cold looked back— Two me’s walkin’ different paths down the same damn track. Measure my life in sips of doubt, Baby, I count stars till we both black out. Do the math on who I’ve been— Equations of broken men, Every answer comes back the same— call it insane. [HOOK] Lay the ashes of my many selves to rest, Physical death to the wings I repressed. Black hearts thump in hollow chests— Our thoughts blessed Right before we exhale the last breath. Lay ’em down, lay ’em down— Let the ashes rest. Lay ’em down, lay ’em down— Let the ashes rest. Lay ’em down, lay ’em down— Let the ashes rest. [BRIDGE] Karma don’t forget what the mirror reflects, But redemption’s why I’m not done yet. Forgive, forget— But kill the threat. A demon buried stays a safer bet. I can’t die here, not while I’m in this debt— Devil knows I’m stubborn, he ain’t won yet. Regret comes natural, sure— Dyin’ in it’s optional. [OUTRO HOOK] Lay the ashes of my many selves to rest, Physical death for the weight in my chest. Our thoughts blessed Right before we exhale the last breath. Lay ’em down, lay ’em down— Let the ashes rest. Lay ’em down, lay ’em down— Let the ashes rest.