I can’t breathe without you, Lex… I don’t know how to start this day. The world feels wrong, off-balance— Like it cracked the moment you slipped away. Your wings aren’t here to flicker, Your laugh isn’t here to pull me back. Ven shai, it hurts so deep, I swear it’s splitting me in half. I’m standing in the dark you left behind, Holding everything you gave me— A bracelet, a crystal disc… And a heart that can’t stop bleeding. Why did your light choose to leave me? Why couldn’t I take your place? Your medallion burns against my skin— A promise and a wound in one space. How do I walk this world without you? How do I breathe when you’re not there? Mi corazón, I’m breaking— It feels like pain is in the air. You’d tell me, “Riley, fight the darkness.” But Flames Lex… I’m drowning here tonight. And the only thing keeping me standing Is knowing Gabe still carries your light. I became a man because of you— Because you believed a boy could rise. You taught me how to stand, how to love, How to laugh even when the world lied. Now every step feels hollow, Every breath feels stolen. I keep reaching for your hand— But my fingers close on nothing. Lex… How do I survive the silence Of a world you’re not breathing in? Your voice haunts these mountains, Whispering lurae when I fall apart… And your medallion pulses with your last light Like you pressed it straight into my heart. How do I walk this world without you? How do I breathe when you’re not there? Mi vida, I’m unraveling— Like the whole sky forgot to care. You’d say, “Riley, fight the darkness. Don’t let go of your light tonight.” But the only reason I’m not collapsing Is knowing Gabe still carries your light. I heard you in my dreams— Just once— Saying, “Please don’t let this destroy you.” But I don’t know how to be okay When the person I became Was because I loved you. You changed every part of me, Lex… Now every part of me hurts. How do I walk this world without you? How do I breathe when you’re not there? Lexie… I’m trying— But grief is more than I can bear. You’d say, “Fight the darkness, Riley.” And maybe I will… someday. But tonight I’m holding your medallion, And begging the stars to let you stay. Te amo, little light… Even if you had to burn away. I’ll keep your light alive Until the night you see me again.
