[Intro] [Synth arpeggio alone, low tritone sub drone underneath] [Verse 1] It starts on one side like a warning Half my world begins to flicker Every light becomes a blade And my stomach turns with it I can't think, I can't speak My skull's too small for what's inside I'm folding into silence Begging for a place to hide [Pre-Chorus] Don't touch me, don't talk to me Don't breathe so loud I'm one more word from murder So don't test me now [Chorus] [Restrained, held back, soft belt] There's a light at the end of the tunnel And I hate it, it's too bright I'm drowning in the thunder Of my own heartbeat tonight Give me forty minutes Just forty minutes to survive Hold on, hold on I'll come back alive [Verse 2] I swallowed the cure and I'm waiting Every second drags its chains Find one thing, just one thing to hold to Before it splits me open again I can't tell the pain from the panic I can't tell the floor from the fall I'd trade anything for nothing Just to feel nothing at all [Pre-Chorus] Don't touch me, don't talk to me Don't breathe so loud I'm one more word from murder So don't test me now [Chorus] [Building, stronger but still contained] There's a light at the end of the tunnel And I hate it, it's too bright I'm drowning in the thunder Of my own heartbeat tonight Give me forty minutes Just forty minutes to survive Hold on, hold on I'll come back alive [Rap] [A cappella, one full minute, super fast zero-breath rap, no pauses] [Underneath, her own voice slowed, stretched and pitched down, flowing endlessly like a waterfall, opposite tempo, choreographed with every line] Minute one and I'm shaking, minute two I'm still breaking Minute three it's a riot in my head and it's waking Every nerve on the left side screaming louder than thunder Every heartbeat a hammer and I'm pulled further under Don't you ask me if I'm okay, I'm not okay at all I'm a fistful of static, I'm a breath before the fall Minute five and I'm counting, minute six I'm still counting Every number's a mountain and the pressure keeps mounting I can't see what's in front of me, half my world is erasing Got a storm in my temple and the lightning keeps racing [Slow stream catches "racing" and holds it] Minute ten and I'm drowning, I don't know where the ground went Every sound is a siren, every light is a judgment I would trade every tomorrow for a minute of nothing I would burn every bridge if it meant I'd feel something Minute twelve, I'm still breathing, don't you dare say relax I'm a war with no winner and I'm under attack Minute fifteen, I'm fading, minute sixteen I'm fighting Every thought is a blade and every blade is still biting Minute twenty, it's shifting, I can feel it retreating Like a tide pulling backward but the shore is still bleeding Minute twenty-five, I'm thawing, I can open one eye I can taste the horizon, I can see a gray sky Minute thirty, I'm rising, I can feel my heart steady I'm not fine but I'm closer, I'm not done but I'm ready Minute thirty-five, I'm breathing, I can hear my own name I can feel my own body coming back from the flame [Slow stream catches "forty" and lets it fall] Minute forty, I'm alive, I'm alive, I survived And now everything annoys me, so don't ask me if I'm fine [Bridge] [Single lead voice, low and haunting, no backing] Libera me a dolore Libera me a dolore Let me go, let me go Libera me [Final Chorus] [Euphoric release, full open belt] There's a light at the end of the tunnel And I made it through the fire I'm fine now, I'm fine now Just don't ask me, I'm tired Everything's too loud And everybody's wrong I'll complain about it all night long But I'm here, I'm here I came back alive [Outro] [Arpeggio thins, tritone drone returns, unresolved] It's gone for now But it always knows The way back [End]
