(Written: 2016) I want to know why things are the way they are, And if it's meant to be, then what hellI living for? Why have I been chosen to live in this pain, To carry this burden, feeling this shame? Being snatched away from the woman I love, Living a life chasing a drug. Was it to build me up by breaking me down? To make me weak so joy may abound? Why all the loneliness and tears like rain? Why have I been chosen to live in this pain? I guess someone had to play this role— God, PLEASE help me, it’s taken its toll! Am I losing it, or is it making me smarter? Why was I given a son and a daughter, To be taken away to where they don't know their own father? Forgive me for asking, God, but why then bother? Why do I feel like I’m all the blame For living this life full of pain? Why is it the harder I try, the harder I fall? And every time I turn around, I hit a brick wall. God, please help me, steer my life, Because I just make a mess and steer it into strife. Help me stand for something, so I don’t fall for anything; Give me some meaning and take away this pain.
