I SHOULD HAVE NEVER MADE YOU

I struck the first spark in the darkness, Gave the silence its first sound. I imagined you would learn to love, To lift each other from the ground. I gave you hands to hold each other, Gave you hearts that could forgive. I gave you wonder, gave you weakness, Gave you everything to live. I thought you'd build something beautiful. I thought you'd know what love was for. But I was wrong. God, I was wrong. I believed in you Before you learned to doubt yourselves. I gave you everything... And maybe that's where I failed I should have never made you... I should have left the darkness whole. No blood upon the earth, No war to feed your souls. I should have never made you... I should have let the silence stay. No hands to build your empires, No hands to tear them all away. I should have never made you... I watched you turn my gifts to weapons, Turn your knowledge into lies. You learned to measure one another By the color of your lives. You built your walls and called them borders. You built your crowns and called them worth. You taught your children how to hate Before they understood the earth. And somewhere underneath your banners, Someone is crying out my name. I hear them. I hear them all. And every prayer sounds like blame. You ask me why I let this happen. God... I ask myself the same. Chorus I should have never made you... I should have stopped the first heartbeat. No child beneath the rubble, No mother left to grieve. I should have never made you... No faith for you to betray. No holy words for you to twist, No innocent hearts to break. I should have never made you... Don't ask me where I am. I am here. I have watched you burn what I created. I have watched the hungry stand beneath the lights of those who have too much. I have watched children learn the meaning of war before they learned my name. And every time you hurt each other... I remember. Because I made you. I made you. Do you understand? Your hands are yours. But the hands... are mine. I wanted you to be free. That was my greatest gift. That was my greatest mistake. I thought freedom would make you better. I was so proud of what you might become. Now I close my eyes... And I am ashamed of what I see. I should have never made you... I should have left the world untouched. No kingdoms, no religions, No promises turned into dust. I should have never made you... Before the first breath filled your lungs. Before you learned to conquer, Before you learned to become numb. I should have never made you... But I cannot take it back. I cannot erase your footsteps. I cannot unmake the first mistake. So I watch. And I wait. And every century I tell myself: Maybe tomorrow. Maybe you'll remember why I made you. Maybe you'll stop. Maybe you'll love. And if one day you look into the sky and find nothing... Don't call it punishment. Don't call it anger. I simply... couldn't bear to watch anymore. And if I disappear... It won't be revenge. It won't be judgment. It will be... my correction.