Cardiac Asphyxia (Emotional)

[Intro - warped carnival, spoken deadly calm] You wanna know what madness sounds like It sounds exactly like this Welcome…to the inside…of a twisted mind [Verse 1 - raspy female rap, sinister carnival piano] Wakes up every day wearing someone else's face Rearranges furniture... her existential living space... Cortisol, conformity and copper on her tongue Performing resurrection for the dead among the young [whisper] she does this every morning... The myocardium learned to waltz in pain Dopamine is AWOL and the amygdala's on fire She is the most functional liar Tch-ka tch-ka watch her go [echo] nobody knows…nobody knows [Pre-Chorus - both voices] Something in the wiring has been crossed Something in the circuitry's been lost Between the woman breathing and the one [both voices] choking in her thoughts [Chorus - 808 drops, choir erupts, raw euphoric] THIS is cardiac asphyxia The beautiful disaster of her mind THIS is cardiac asphyxia The chaos she learned to call divine No fracture you can point to , no wound you recognize Just a woman in the mirror with kaleidoscopic eyes [war cry] She's so ALIVE inside her own demise [Verse 2 - more unhinged, Arabian vocal looping] She names her symptoms like they were pets Anxiety he ain't paid his debts Dissociation her sister always late Paranoia knocks at three and will not wait... [giggling] the family's all here She hosts them like dinner guests she cant refuse Sets the table with apathy calls it her muse The prefrontal cortex sent a resignation letter [manic scatting] and honestly...things have never been better Kk-kk-kk-kk Watch her move She'll eat the dark devouring the night, ignites her heart [Second voice erupting]... THIS IS HER WORLD NOW [Pre-Chorus - both voices darker] Something in the wiring has been crossed Something in the circuitry's been lost Between the woman breathing and the one [both voices] choking in her thoughts [Chorus - Bulgarian choir, 808 heavier] THIS is cardiac asphyxia The beautiful disaster of her mind This is cardiac asphyxia The chaos she learned to call divine No fracture you can point to, no wound you recognize Just a woman in the mirror with kaleidoscopic eyes Cardiac asphyxia [Manic laugh building to war cry] She's so ALIVE inside her own demise [Breakdown - everything slows, warped carnival piano alone, Bulgarian choir low and ancient, arabian vocal sample looping, vocal drops to whispered spoken word, deadly calm] Here is what they dont put in textbooks Here is what the clinical notes missed... She is not broken she is baroke Ornate in her dysfunction ... magnificent in her abyss... She's memorized the frequency of every person's fear Reads the room before she enters it She's been doing this for years Years…years…years… And somewhere in the methodology Of maintaining her own dissolution She found something that felt like... [pause] freedom's absolution [Breakdown 2 - 808 crashes back, choir explodes] [both voices] YOU WANT THE MADNESS HERE IT IS IT DONT GET MORE REAL THAN THIS [Bridge — full lunatic energy, manic scatting, war cries, vocalizations, Bulgarian choir screaming, everything at maximum chaos] Ha-HA [kk-kk-kk] she sees you Ha-HA [tch-ka-tch] she knows Ha-HA [rrrRRR] the diagnosis Never told her how this goes... She wrote her own prescription In a language no one reads [both voices together manic and triumphant] Lived through her own chaos AND MADNESS PLANTED SEEDS [Final Chorus - peak chaos, both voices, merciless] THIS is cardiac asphyxia The beautiful disaster of her mind This is cardiac asphyxia The chaos she learned to call divine No fracture you can point to, no wound you recognize Just a woman in the mirror with kaleidoscopic eyes Cardiac asphyxia [both voices war cry] She's so ALIVE... inside her own demise [Outro - music box alone, spoken perfectly calm] She looks in the mirror... Smiles at her reflection… Slayer of demons... Insanity…to perfection! [music box slowing…stopping]