Every time you take a step forward There’s always something pulling you back Back to that darkness one tried so hard to escape It lingers, like blood dripping slowly down as a tear You have seen the translucent skies The quiet screaming so loud your mind hurts It creeps inside, aching inside your heart Wilting one’s soul like a flower that once received nourishment No longer alive Unseen, Unheard But an observer knows and waits in the stillness Fighting the dark inside Waiting for a chance to see clearly Is this doubt and the devil? Is this where a decision can be made? Or, shall one sit a little longer Watching, waiting Listening To the action over words To the music that makes no sounds The dance that has no moves Is it really all so innocent? Come on!! Learned behaviour shouts It’s so incredibly loud your heart sinks further Hope signals and you flick it off Better to remain in the dark Why would anything good continue? Was it good to begin with? Doubt is the devil. Chasing you, screaming at you Watch out, do not be consumed Your eyes will open When you sit in the stillness Watching, Waiting, Listening You emerge with the answer. But the waiting sucks It’s so easy to remain numb The dark so inviting Missing out on joy When the end result brings pain You know it will It always does Writing about the past cleanses the soul So, you write and write and write Praying the words will float far far away Shouting to God they never fall your way Again You desire the light and love A true blessing with care and intent Waiting is right Watching provides clarity Listening aligns the mind Experience brings an internal patience That cannot be swayed Cannot be touched While the outside screams The inside sits in stillness But the dark wants to creep All you want to do is sleep The abyss calls It’s dangerous You remind yourself not to go there Focus on God’s will over your own Observers find a balance The flesh reacts, but the soul stays intact So, once again….sitting, waiting Will this time be real Will this one be yours Will God intervene So, you sit and pray Because it’s the only thing left Giving it all to God as you sit in stillness Because it’s the Only Thing Left
