If I build a home inside my chest Teach that scared kid how to rest (what rest?) Could I be the one who finally says “You deserved so much better than this?" (You Don't) (Stop fooling yourself) I replay every moment Like I'm stuck in rewind I need a better pill to chew Of a childhood I never knew Where was the Joy I’m meant to keep For when the world got cold and deep A secret stash I’d find someday To light me up. To lead the way. They told me pain would make me stronger Then, why do I feel so weak? So Weak? You circled every flaw, said "children should be seen, not heard" Took it to heart, memorized that law I dimmed my glow to keep the peace A star that learned to hide its light ('till something inside began to fight.) I replay every moment Like I'm stuck in rewind I need a better pill to chew Of a childhood I never knew Where was the Joy I’m meant to keep For when the world got cold and deep A secret stash I’d find someday To light me up. To lead the way. They told me pain would make me stronger Then, why do I feel so weak? So Weak? I still remember the words you left behind That there's no easy avenues in life When money doesn't grow on trees You gotta work hard to succeed (You also said you'd love me forever) If growin' up means acceptance then how do I accept this hate? I tightened every bit inside ('til even my heart was set aside) I replay every moment Like I'm stuck in rewind I need a better pill to chew Of a childhood I never knew Where was the Joy I’m meant to keep For when the world got cold and deep A secret stash I’d find someday To light me up. To lead the way. They told me pain would make me stronger Then, why do I feel so weak? So Weak? Can anything grow under this gloom When I never learned to make me bloom Still searching for that one small spark (I must’ve missed somewhere in the dark) (In the dark)
