[Verse 1] Have you ever loved somebody so deep that every goodbye felt like a pause not an ending? Standing in a doorway heart on the floor, telling yourself this time its only good he’s intenden Have you been thinking this must be forever, then you find out it’s pretending? Have you ever begged for love from a man who throws it round the room but can’t pay you attention? Have you ever watched that screen in your hand for days into months while your whole body’s shaking? Waiting on a message, waiting on a call, waiting while he didn’t care at all? Have you seen him leave, then leave again, then circle back with flowers & of course u forgive I mean look how sorry he is… He is sorry enough for something like hope to grow, then he packs his bags, and you’re the one staying all alone? [Pre-Chorus] Have you ever felt your worth Dragged across the floor? Knew you were made for more But you kept going back but don’t know why the fuck for? [Chorus] Have you ever loved so hard you drown in the distance? Screaming underwater but they call it resistance? Held up a life on your own two hands While they tore down every bridge and dam? Have you ever loved so much you lost your reflection? Gave away your soul in the name of connection? Baby, I was breaking bone by bone And you called it a happy home [Verse 2] Have you watched another woman wear your heartbreak in public like a dress she is spinning? Dance in the ashes from the very beginning laughing in the front row like cruelty is winning? Have you ever felt them point at you for fires you never did start, still you’re the one they’re pinning? Have you been mocked for the wounds on your skin, questioning if u should even live Have you ever begged and pleaded just to not be needed, while grief sits heavy so ur barely breathin? Lost somebody u loved, but there’s no room left to mourn ’cause chaos keeps on seething? Have you carried children you didn’t make alone, hear him say, “They not mine,” like u would ever do him wrong? Rubbing on your belly with a river down your face, whispering a prayer just to save your babes? [Pre-Chorus] Have you held two babies tight With fear locked in your chest? Smiled for every eye in sight Hiding what you can’t confess? That you and ur babies cry together all night [Chorus] Have you ever loved so hard you drown in the distance? Heartbreak and silence, he’s gone with persistence? Carried a house and the bills and vows While he disappeared, you were asking how? Have you ever loved so much you lost your reflection? Built a whole world out of pure affection? Baby, I was breaking bone by bone Carrying a weight that was never my own. And u say that’s a happy home [Bridge] Have you held up a marriage, children, business, schedules, sirens, late-night calls? Held it the FUCK all Running every errand, fixing every crisis, wondering when u will have to find him lifeless Have you been responsible for everyone around you while nobody answers when you crawl? Have you loved an addict, where every promise has a timer ticking on the wall? Every good day fades away like smoke and u just miss what go’s? Have you seen him almost die a dozen different ways and swear, “This time he’ll change”? Then nothing shifts, and you’re forced to taste the truth that an end is coming like a silent doom. Years of waiting on the next relapse, the next vanishing act, the next collapse [Breakdown] Have you been called crazy for reacting to the crazy? Insane for telling the truth while they paint you shady? Hateful for being hurt, like your pain’s a sin? Start to question your own memory ’cause their lie’s all in? Have you wanted help and they served humiliation? Wanted shelter and they handed you a decoration? Prayed for protection but they filmed your tears instead? Choosing to record your breakdown for the sake of holding over your head? [Verse 3] Seen your pain replayed like a rerun while your spirit’s shackled up in chains? Have you felt your story twisted, every secret weaponized to leave you tame? Watched your family crumble inside ’cause they love you, but your torment is their constant strain? Have you seen your grandparents’ faces lined with worry every time your name appears? Watched people who care turn away not from lack of love but ’cause they’re running out of years? Have you stayed longer than wisdom said, forgiven more than counsel you hear? Believed harder than the evidence, stacking hope against your fears? [Pre-Chorus] Have you told yourself, “This is the last time, this is the thing that makes it right”? The cheating, the leaving, the ring on your finger, the vows in white the married but alone for months kinda nights? The pregnancy, the twins, the seizure the constant fight for life? But you’re standing in the same damn place, same question still in sight. Wishing this time… could I not be right? [Chorus] Have you ever loved so hard you drown in the distance? Piece by piece you’re fading out of your own existence?
