You must think I’m ungrateful. Why else would you be scrutinizing me, While thinking I’m more than a handful. Kick me out if that’s what you want. I already had plans of an escape route. Don’t hold my property over my head, Then changing the script making me look like a scape goat. You’ve know I’ve been struggling and suffering, Looking for any way out. I was never expecting my own blood to be so hateful. You thought it was characteristics or fear why I called the ambulance after what I did. But really, was me just not wanting me to die at you’re house. We need a maid to clean up this place it’s so disgusting. Could you distinctly tell me what I want, From my words, my wants, and needs? Can you distinctly say what I want, Or what it means for me to be better? I understand people want me to be. Got a lotta wants for me, But don’t want what I want for me. I think they can’t distinguish… Good one day, the next just flip. Quick change up the scripts. Now moods cycle every hour. Exhaustion hits, while reality quits. Time to admit you don’t know when to admit and commit the twit to admission. Quick to run, fast to change the topic. So guess I’m just the problem, while you avoiding the problem. Here. Guess I’ll wait another month. All to repay what I owe. Won’t bother no more. No need to borrow, Stick a knife in flesh. Before I do it again. Call it a scarecrow. Loose threads, No seams in the pattern. Footprints fade, But the floorboards still chatter. Turn one page, Make the whole book scatter. Same old key, But the shape don’t matter. Hear my work, Let the ink run thin. Out of one frame, Into spaces between. Nothing said, But the margins speak. Doors stay shut, While the hinges swing. Low tide, Still the current runs deep. No clock on the wall, Still the hands don’t sleep. Lines on a map Lose the place they keep. Seeds split stone Without making a peep. No name for the wind, No claim on the weather. Loose ends drift, Then they knot together. Read it once, Every word stays clever. Read it twice, Nothing holds it forever. Be patient. Yeah, you got me. Don’t try to stalk me. Ruthless body, Rotting, decaying, Twisted degradation, Mental medication. Break him, Just to meditate him. They waiting on my downfall, But it won’t be sloppy. Open my window, I hear voices talking. I think they got me. I think they got to me. Stole from me, Robbed from me. Outta be stopping This sanity robbery. Worried about what I do, Not protected by private property. Come and talk to me. Copy. Cocky. Why they tryna stop me When they won’t talk to me? Yodelling, trolling, See if it’s gonna— I’m gon’ stop me. I’m gon’ stop me. I’m gon’ stop me. I don’t need no help, Never was no crisis. I never cried for it. Tension rises. You’re lying If you said I did. Can’t rely on ’em. Can’t reply to them. I don’t trust nobody, Talking justice, But moving Punisher. Should’ve pursued a different path, Maybe a publisher. You the one crying, Always trying, Always lying, Finding reasons why people deny it. Cannot deny it If we never find him. Investors. Demons. Neglect-ion. Clear rejection. Pressure assessments. I don’t want it, So no, don’t need it. Get off of me. Tryna offer me To police or doctors, But nobody wanting me. If you not my people, Just don’t fucking talk to me. I’m not anyone’s. I’m not a piece of property. I don’t have a price. Very nice. Always polite. Raised right. Honest mind. Man’s on point. Demon time. They think they got me. I got me. I got me. Tired of your ways of intimidating, Investigating, Narrating, dictating, frustrating, Surveilling, profiling, vilifying, falsifying, Categorizing, stigmatizing, terrorizing, Gaslighting, implicating, interrogating, Misjudging, misconstruing, disapproving, Manipulating, suffocating, isolating, Invalidating, speculating, scrutinizing, Dehumanizing, demonizing, antagonizing, Controlling, patrolling, withholding, imposing, Accusing, confusing, intruding, Condemning, pretending, offending, Harassing, embarrassing, suppressing, Interfering, commandeering, persecuting, Discrediting, objectifying, marginalizing, Subjugating, suffocating, dehumanizing. Interrogation. Observation. Constant evaluation. Condemnation with no patience, Accusations without basis. Frustration. Aggravation. Suffocation of my statements. Every word I put together Gets dissected into fragments. Misrepresentation, Deformation of the narrative. Judging my entire life Off a selective little paragraph. You want an explanation, Then you question every answer. Turn a conversation to a courtroom, Turn a person to a character. Classification. Stigmatization. Calculated separation. Complication after complication, Manufactured aggravation. No consideration, Just another condemnation. Put a label on a human, Call it understanding. I refuse to be reduced to your interpretation. I refuse to be a pawn in your imagination. No ownership. No control. No forced identification. I’m a person, not a fucking case for your evaluation.
