[Clock] Tick Tock [Pen scratches] Dear Universe I don't know How people start these things [Pen tap] So Here goes I was born with one eye On the road out of town One hand on the window One foot on the ground Learned how to look fearless Learned how to look bright Learned how to make everybody laugh When I wasn't all right I can walk in like sunshine Then go missing inside I can tell you the truth And still have somewhere to hide I know how to leave I know how to begin What I'm trying to learn now Is how to stay Inside my own skin [Clock becomes beat] [Chorus] Dear Universe I'm writing it down Who I was Who I am Who I'm becoming now Don't send me an answer Don't show me a sign I'm done asking the whole damn sky For permission To call this life mine Dear Universe Can you hear me? Good Just listen this time [Pen scratches] I feel too much Then I question the feeling Read every silence From the floor to the ceiling I catch little changes Before words arrive Feel something shift Then spend all damn night Asking why I'm soft where I'm hidden I'm hard where I'm seen I can dream like a child Then build like a machine I want something lasting But don't close the gate Want love with some roots And a road If I need my own space [Rhythm accelerates] I want truth I want depth I want laughter I want breath I want somebody close enough To know me Not define what's left I've looked straight into darkness Didn't turn from the view Sometimes what scares me most Isn't pain It's something true [Chorus] Dear Universe I'm writing it down Who I was Who I am Who I'm becoming now Don't send me an answer Don't show me a sign I'm done asking the whole damn sky For permission To call this life mine Dear Universe Can you hear me? Good Just listen this time [Guzheng harmonic] [Clock] Tick Tock [Pen stops] I've rearranged the furniture Inside my head again Moved the old expectations Out from where they'd always been Some doors looked like freedom Some freedom looked like fear Some people felt like home to me Then home got Way too near And maybe I confused them Maybe they confused me too Maybe wanting to be understood Made everything harder to do I don't need to blame somebody To admit that something hurt I don't need to burn the letters Just because They didn't work [Paper turns] [Bridge] So here's what I'm afraid of I'm afraid I'll run When something matters I'm afraid I'll stay When something's gone I'm afraid I'll call it intuition When I'm scared That I could be wrong I'm afraid somebody sees me All the way through And somehow that is harder Than having nothing left to lose [Clock stops] But listen— I am not the girl Who survived all that Just to spend her life Surviving I am not rebuilding everything Just to make a prettier place For hiding I am allowed to change Allowed to want Allowed to leave Allowed to love Allowed to need Allowed to say I don't know yet And still believe That's enough [Silence] [Pen touches paper] Dear Universe Maybe that's the letter [Sub-bass returns] [Final Chorus] Dear Universe I'm writing it down Who I was Who I am Who I'm becoming now I don't need an answer I don't need a sign Maybe growing up Is realizing The hand on the pen Was always mine Dear Universe I can hear myself For the first time In a while And underneath All that running There she is That girl Still wild [Clock returns] Tick Tock [Soft vocal] She wants the road She wants the window She wants somewhere Safe to land She wants somebody Who can love her Without closing Either hand [Pen scratches] But tonight She mostly wants To know herself [Page turns] So that's where I'm gonna start [Clock] Tick Tock [Pen writes] Love Me [End]
