Depressive Episode

[Verse] Doom and dread Inside is dead My heart is bred Thoughts from my head Saying what shouldn't be said Needing life but instead Those moments cut deep bleed red I guess I didn't eat my daily bread I never had any street cred I told you it was Christ I wed But yeah I'm not really that well fed Was it to my end that I was led? [Pre-Chorus] Expectation unmet Yeah I coulda bet Just cuz you tried Doesn't mean you didn't lie Even when it's not your fault Still I try to hide in my vault [Chorus] I guess no one cares about me Or at least that's what I default to Even though untrue I still can't seem to see Depressive episode staged a coup I'm not useless, I know I'm not I hate that I still feel that a lot [Verse 2] You're an amateur Far from mature Just a child Your lyrics mild Or even worse they're out of style You've been outta the loop for a while Beat me down when I'm already down That's all that happens when I'm in town Maybe this is a cry for help I'm no Olympian Michael Phelps Music, physics, data science If only I'd shut up in compliance [Pre-Chorus] Expectation unmet Yeah I coulda bet Just cuz you tried Doesn't mean you didn't lie Even when it's not your fault Still I try to hide in my vault [Chorus] I guess no one cares about me Or at least that's what I default to Even though untrue I still can't seem to see Depressive episode staged a coup I'm not useless, I know I'm not I hate that I still feel that a lot [Bridge] It was me, I did it Or maybe I didn't It doesn't make a difference My life's still falling apart I didn't make this inference God I need a jump start [Chorus] I guess no one cares about me Or at least that's what I default to Even though untrue I still can't seem to see Depressive episode staged a coup I'm not useless, I know I'm not I hate that I still feel that a lot [Outro] I don't know how but I need this to end This is worse than I can comprehend