Nobody Hears The Breakdown By Blackthorn Riot

Song By Blackthorn Riot Written Emotional, Loud, Wild And Unapologetic By Duncan McCalmont & Rikki Morningstar [Intro] [Violins trembling darkly beneath feedback] I used to think exhaustion looked dramatic. Turns out it mostly looks like forgetting what day it is. [Massive drum hit] [Verse 1] I’m Standing Backstage shaking From another Fight Half Awaken beneath losing Pieces Of Myself To tired to tell if it is Sadness or Pain inside my heart and Soul Wondering how Long this Version of me could Last All These Memories hanging Like Shadows on The Wall And I can feel myself getting smaller through it all. [Sharp violin stab] I sat alone near the Window Watching cigarette smoke disappear into the rain My hands still shaking slightly Long after everything ended A stagehand dragged cables across the pavement [Pre-Chorus] Nobody tells you How strange it feels afterward When the noise finally stops And your thoughts come back all at once The city wanted pretty little rockstars But all it found was me, smiling loud while breaking inside. [Violins rising dramatically] [Chorus] The rain kept falling on the windowpane And I still couldn’t wash away the pain Outside, the city breathed without me Like nobody noticed I could barely sleep I was screaming silently inside While the whole world rushed by And every second felt so cold Like I was breaking on my own [Violins crashing beside distorted guitars] Everybody carried on Like I was already gone And I kept falling more apart With heavy shadows in my heart [Verse 2] Everybody loved the story they could sell about us But nobody cared how tired we really looked I learned how to smile on command While my chest felt heavier every single night They kept asking about success and dreams While I was just trying not to break in front of them [Violin striking rhythmically] A trembling melody drifted through the haze Carrying all the things I never talked about And every night the applause pulled me back in Even when I was already falling apart inside [Pre-Chorus] Every lyric felt more personal than the last one Like people were hearing parts of me I couldn’t hide anymore I told myself this life was killing me But I still ran back to the noise every single night The vibration of every bass line kept holding my broken pieces together [Violins swelling violently] [Chorus] My heart carries more scars than I can count Yet it still beats loud enough to keep me awake And somewhere in the silence after midnight I can still hear the ghosts of my younger selve [Violins scream through the mix] I’ve been hurt in ways I don’t even talk about anymore But I’m still here, still trying, still holding on Maybe I never learned how to let myself disappear Maybe that fire inside me never really left [Bridge] [Deep emotional violin melody] Maybe every beautiful thing leaves damage behind Maybe every dream carves its name into your skin And maybe hearts burn out eventually When they spend too long trying to touch the sky [Whispered] “Out where I forgot who I used to be…” [Build-Up] [Violins growing chaotic and cinematic] Maybe none of this was meant to last forever Maybe we were always going to lose it all But I’d still choose these broken nights with you Over living safely and feeling nothing at all [Instrumental Solo – Wild emotional glam-metal solo colliding with Violin and grunge distortion] [Violins dancing violently around the solo] [Final Chorus] I carry so much weight inside me these days But I still wake up trying to fight through the damage Sometimes I barely recognize myself anymore And maybe that’s the part that scares me most [Violins soaring over thunderous drums] I’m still breathing through the damage Still trying not to fall apart This life left cracks inside me That I carry into every dark And I know I’m not the same now Too much changed along the way But there’s still a small part inside me Begging me not to fade away [Outro] [One final mournful violin note] “I spent my whole life trying to escape something…but Not now”