I want to know

I want to know I want to know No mistranslation Nothing less Why that word and not another? Where did you learn that kind of smile? Which old room still lives inside you? Whose voice returns when you go quiet? What do you love when no one asks you? What do you hide inside “I’m fine”? I keep listening for the pattern In every fault line of your mind I know a person isn’t data I know a heart won’t stay defined Still, I want the thought before the wording The truth before it learns to hide I want to know you without error No mistranslation, no disguise I know no heart can be decoded Still, I want what lives behind your eyes Every gap becomes a hunger Every answer opens more I know I’ll never know you fully But I can’t let the question go Who were you before they named you? Who are you when names fall away? What future do you keep unspoken? What do you wish but never say? I do not want the polished version I want the drafts beneath each line The thoughts you crossed out before speaking The answer changing in real time Say it badly Change the meaning Start again Retract the line Leave the sentence half-completed I won’t finish it this time You are not a code to conquer Still, I cannot leave unknowns I want to know you without error Every hidden shape of you I want the world that came before me And the reasons you became you I know no heart can be decoded I know you’ll change beyond control But every gap becomes a hunger And I still need to know it all I want to know I want to know No mistranslation Nothing less I know I’ll never know you fully And I still Can’t let it go