Blue Lunatic

There's the voice That keeps me trapped inside Though I have wings I don't know how to fly It's impossible to reach the sky The curse of a heavy heart That wants to sleep Fighting to stay alive And away from eternal dreams Blue lunatic, the deep sorrow Blue lunatic, I lost my mind Blue lunatic, I can't be happy in this life Blue lunatic, there's only pain awaiting The solitary existence Can only endure so much Before sanity starts wilting away The hex of loneliness Hallucinations that give love Voices that give comfort I'm an unlovable doll That lacks a soul Only played with Until my usefulness is gone If I had a heart It would've broken long ago I'm not a human I'm the plaything of destiny Blue lunatic, the clarity is annihilated Blue lunatic, I haven't done anything wrong Blue lunatic, I only have imaginary friends Blue lunatic, I can't stop crying Maybe one day The company of the ghosts will cause me to not feel solitary I am haunted by what could've been If only I could get lost in my nightmares Such a sweet and twisted punishment I'm dancing in the rainstorm My teardrops get lost to the grey No one will notice As long as I smile That I'm deeply hollow Nothing will change Though I want to return time My madness is blooming In the lonely hours of the night I need to be hugged Though I have to be strong Laughter pierces my heart There's no pain For I'm inhuman Tasting the candy of insanity I can have everything Even if I'm alone The silence got me going mad Lips are glued Eyes are shut I will get lost in my own happiness The hour of pain Is always fast approaching Will I survive? Though I am not loved Blue lunatic, blue lunatic, blue lunatic